My Brother Can Be A Pain

I Have Pity, I Have Love, I Have... Not So Much Of Love

There is one person I have pity, love and not so much of love for. Probably everybody in the world has this one person. Yeah. It's a relative. You can't help but sometimes feel different emotions for a one person and it's amazing how those emotions can vary from despising ones and loving ones. For me, I guess you could say that my relative that I cannot stand or live without is my brother.

My brother is one of the people in the world I pity the most and despise the most. I feel jealous for all those only child people.

I guess you could say that my brother is an okay guy. But these few days at home have really shown me how thankful I should be that a teacher takes care of him for five hours at school and that I don't really see him much for those five hours.

But as I have said, he is one of the most annoying people in the world.

First I will start off with why I pity Raymond.

I pity Raymond because he is much too dependant on his family. Every night he says good night to each member of our family and he won't go to sleep until he does it. And it isn't just a good night from the bed room to our dad in the other room. He will repeat the good night until he gets a "positive" reply. And my parents take advantage of that. If they're cross with Raymond, they'll ignore him. Sometimes he stays up until around 1:30 in the morning if he doesn't get a positive reply. I pity him when these times happen, but I despise him because he is unable to be independent.

One large issue I feel that Raymond has that will greatly affect how I treat him in the future and now is his lack for understanding my feelings. He does not respect my personal space. He has completely no respect for my personal space and will not leave whenever I ask him to. I have a lot of personal things in my blog that I would not like Raymond to read and I feel that he doesn't understand that I need him to leave when I am typing my posts.

Another problem Raymond has is that he will not stop even if he realizes that he is hurting somebody, offending somebody or annoying somebody. His lack for understanding these things will possibly greatly harm him in the future and because of this reason I pity him.

Then again, he is my brother. And I have to accept people for who they are. Especially if they are family. And I have to stick with him.

Because he is my brother.

I play with him everyday.

And you know what? I have to accept this.

I'd Love To Skip This, But I Can't

Just a little fun fact before I wrap up this post. Every post registered since December 6, 2011 has included a quote at the ending. Anyways, back to what I was originally talking about.

Even now my brother is doing what I have just described. I barely get times to post when Raymond is not watching. Anyways, here goes the usual routine.

Today I'm a 8. I'm in a seriously peeved off mood because of my brother always constantly nagging and bugging me. I really don't know how I'm going to handle this over the break.

"Mixed feelings, like mixed drinks, are a confusion to the soul." - George Carman

It's Only Been Five Minutes


It's only been five minutes after this post, but my day has already gone from an 8 to a 5. Today was absolutely one of the worst days of my life. I feel the worst. I feel horrible.

My dad just came home and if you've read some of my latest posts, then you'll know that I'm on some sort of program. I'm only supposed to use the computer for three hours a day and I used it for the whole day (hey, I basically NEED to socialize) and when my dad came home, he got quite angry at me and my brother just kept on cheerfully singing to the song I was playing.

Right beside me.

Completely no emotional respect either.

So now no computer for the next... I dunno, while? And I'll be seriously pissed at Raymond for the remainder of the Spring break.