If you're wondering why there is a post before the Science Provincial exam, well, I suppose I got bored and I actually had something to blog about. That should be reason enough? Sometimes I don't even know where I'm going with this blog...
Anyhow, onto the actual topic I was going to blog about.
Over the summer, it feels like I've become worse as opposed to becoming better. I'm sure the majority of people set out to reach their goals by becoming better at something. So why do I feel so... bad about myself? Friends. Or should I say ex-friends? I have no idea where I stand with certain people.
So you're wondering why I am pondering on this topic yet again. Well, to put things simply, I got into a fight with another friend and now it seems that I've lost two friends? The problem is that I never have the guts to actually face my problems and let them go, as if they'll disappear magically (oh only if they could). This bad trait of mine has caused me trouble in the past but it still seems that I haven't learned my lesson.
And that's why I just reach out to people on this blog.
I think I'll actually be glad when school goes back in session. Maybe it just feels like I've been missing out on way too many things. I enjoy being around friends and in a great environment and school provides that, no matter how many people say that they'd wish that school never existed. For me I wish that this summer never happened. Maybe if it never happened, I would still be friends with those two people (maybe we are, but I have no idea). I wouldn't be going to a brand new class full of people older than me. Then again, how do I know that this summer is a bad thing? Maybe it will be or trigger one of the best events in my life.
The thing about broken things, like friendships, is that if it isn't already obliterated into pieces, you can still salvage some part of it. Sure, there will be a few cracks and missing pieces here and there, but you've still got something out of it. That's it for this post. I'd like to believe I'm a better number, but right now I feel like a low 7.
By the way, I did study for the exam if you're really that concerned about the outcome of it (I know my family is).
"Men tire themselves in the pursuit of rest." - Laurence Sterne
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