Kevin Being Kevin

This May Or May Not Be The Best Or Worst Post Yet Hey there. My name's Kevin. Nice to meet you (^^). I'm currently enrolled in grade nine at Alpha Secondary school, where I'm the grade rep. I captain the Juvenile Boys Volleyball team and I like school for the most part. As of now I'm not sure about my love life, but it's non-existent. There's nothing to talk about but infatuation and more infatuation. I enjoy writing short novels, even though I've never completed a good one. I also like playing sports, being with friends, and feeling like a part of something. If there is ever something that I want to accomplish in life, it's to be somebody special. I want to be special to people. Right now it doesn't seem like my life is heading in quite the right direction. My family doesn't like my work ethic at home, and my friends and teachers seem to do exactly the opposite. So that leaves me with a bit of conflict. But I kind of just shove it all aside and go on with my life, trying to do what I think is right. Yes, this is meant to be a huge block of text because the further you go, the more boring it will become, but the more interesting things there will be (confusing right?). Anyhow, I'm scared of a lot of things. I'm scared of my family going away before I can say goodbye. I am not a family person, but I love my family very much. Very very very much. I can't imagine life without them. I also love my friends very much, and every now and then there is that one friend that I can love more than anybody else. Except sometimes (more often now than before) that person isn't somebody that I know. And in that case, it's called infatuation, because what I do is imagine up a relationship and assume that it'd be wonderful and that everything is perfect. But that's unrealistic. There is a quote that I heard that went something along the lines of, "There are no miracles. Only the inevitable and the coincidental." So I guess everything in life happens for a reason right? Because of that thinking, I just do whatever feels right. I'll end up where I'm supposed to be. And I'll be happy with that. If I end up on the streets, I'll be okay, because I'll either end up dying or just being me. But you know, I want to live life to its fullest, and on the streets doesn't seem to be the path for that. Sometimes I wonder why I'm worrying so much about everything, and I suppose it's largely due to my courses. Yes, I'm the type of person who takes a course a year up, and that does put a specific amount of stress on that person. It's tiring, lugging around all that stress on your back. On top of that you have a volleyball team to lead, and a reputation to maintain. I have to be a good rep right? Today two people got into a fight. I think I passed by a few minutes before it happened, and I'm wondering what would I have done if I was there? There were apparently others there, and I have to think about why they didn't go in and stop the fighting. Is that the type of society that we live in? The type where crude words are thrown around, tempers and lost, and all of the sudden fists are flying? It's so different from my type of thinking that it seems impossible. I'm a pretty chill type of person, and I think in life I've only ever broken once. That one time was actually this year on the night before Valentine's Day. It's funny because I went to school next day pretending that nothing ever happened. Another thing I dislike are masks. I don't like not seeing people who they really are. But masks are a natural part of life. Some say that it's good to develop several masks. I'm kind of on that side. But yeah. Oh well, there goes the post. I'm an 8 tonight and I'm starting to think about everything. Funny. "You always admire what you don't understand." - Balise Pascal