Not Worth

Life Is One Big Sob Story

Sometimes it's as if life was this really big and depressing story with little pockets of happiness splattered around the place. It seems like this, and at times it also appears that life is instead happy with sadness thrown about. It just depends on what way you look at it, and that may also show whether you are optimistic or pessimistic.

Lately everything's been downhill. Mood swing? Can't tell. It's been a while. Report card wasn't too nice (to the point where I'm not making Principal's Honour Roll) and chem is really just bugging me. On top of all that the lately hot weather has made everything seem even more unbearable. I actually tried to study for a chem test and despite my efforts I got a B on that test, so I feel like maybe I'm just bad at chem.

Life is one big sob story that isn't worth it.

Enter May

Countdown to the exam is starting. Two more months left. And then I'm done. I can be done with everything. I won't care anymore. I won't have to care. I can just sleep, wake up, and not care. After the exam I can't even imagine how relieved I will be. Honestly. These past few months have jumped by, but if I can say that then I can also say that these past 14 years have zoomed by. Whatever. I don't even feel like trying anything anymore.

I've always been okay at everything. Some things I'm really good at. Other things I'm okay. And if I'm bad at something, then I try harder to get to the okay level. But for some reason I just can't seem to put enough effort into chem. So it leaves me thinking that chem is actually something I'm perpetually terrible at.

Ah, what a terrible post.

Hate It When...

People ignore me. I dislike it. Or when they just throw me away with, "Whatever." It hurts right? I have a friend. He's a great friend. In class he sometimes ignores me. I don't know if he's just completely zoned out or something, but he it seems like he really really hates me with all his guts. And then a minute passes and he's at me with his cheery voice asking about anime or something. I don't get it.

Do people even hate me? Probably. I don't know. There are so many things that I don't know.

Donsies

That concludes this post for today. My sincerest (not really) apologies for not posting for the past week. A lot of the time I don't feel like posting anymore. Later guys.

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"We are what we pretend to be, so we must be careful what we pretend to be." - Kurt Vonnegut