Yesteryear

Last night I sat with A and C in those kinda gross red armchairs on the fourth floor at the back of the AMS Nest, and we talked about a lot of stuff. Most of it was dumb, but somehow we got on the point of high school. Or was it ultimate? Either way, whichever one it wasn't would follow the other in conversation.

Oh I remember now. It was ultimate.

We talked about how it was a fun season (A had played in grade 12 only, C didn't play but came to watch a few times) and various other things about the season. I had the amazing experience of captaining the ultimate team for my senior year, and some of my favourite memories are the post-game spirit circles. A and I reminisced on how I would say the same set of lame jokes every time, and then thank everybody for the game and give out spirit awards.

At this point, A said the spirit circles specifically were some of the happiest moments of her life. I didn't know how to react, but I felt really proud for some reason. I think I thanked her and said that they were definitely some of the happiest times of my life as well, but I don't remember exactly what I said.

Then we started talking about our high school experience and what an awesome senior year we had. Ultimate was a big part of that, but there were also other things - getting to be a part of Students' Council and other groups, some J's, free blocks, the euphoric feeling of getting accepted, and I could go on forever.

It hurts a lot to think that that time was hardly a year ago, because I can say with certainty that those days were the happiest of my life, and what I'm doing right now pales in comparison.

But while that's true, it is only for now. It's important to approach each day with the expectation and conviction that it will be better than the last, and I hope that eventually I will stumble upon those days that I can call the new best of my life. After all, I won't truly know the "best days of my life" until I'm lying in my death bed, ready to move onto the next adventure, and I'd like to think that if I've gotten that far, I've lived a pretty good life.