January 22, 2017

January update!

Hey there! Today I'll be dropping in and throwing together a little post to keep you updated! It's been extremely busy lately, more than ever, and my last few days of high school are just burning away. My grade 12 year has been so much different than any of my previous years, and it's a surreal experience to be in the middle of it all. I'll also be using this post to kinda look at everything and take a breather, so hopefully both of us finish this post more knowledgeable.

School
My courses are pretty decent this semester, I consistently get homework from one of my three classes and usually it's not too bad to finish. Computer programming, while it isn't providing the growth and education that I sought, is a good block to unwind and relax. Physics is a challenging course that requires a lot of dedication and effort into the work that you do, but I've been doing surprisingly well! English is where I'm most worried because my mark isn't as high as I'd like it to be and it may dip even more after the provincial exam. Not sure what to expect next semester, but I'll get through it all.

Grad stuff
On top of the regular classes all grads are expected to fill a whole bunch of requirements for graduating: graduation transitions, 30/90 hours of work experience, and student-led interviews to name the biggest ones. This winter break I just completed my 90 hours so I'll be looking to finish off my grad trans sometime soon and be free! Not sure what to expect from student-led, but from what I hear it isn't that bad and it's definitely not something I should be worrying about right now.

Uni stuff
Right now I'm applied to UBC and SFU, and I don't think I'll be trying for any other place. I applied to the science and applied sciences faculties for both schools, however I applied for early admission for UBC, so I'm really hoping that I'll get an early offer. It would really take a load off my shoulder, instill some confidence in me, and give me a very realistic goal to work towards. My application to SFU is completed, however my Major Entrance Scholarship application for them is not.

Lacking
Recently I have been feeling like a mediocre Students' Council member, and even as a student. There are some people around me who are doing some really cool and profound things and I'm kinda just flopping around going by each day. It sounds sad, but right now I've settled for mediocrity and I'm not pushing myself nearly as much as I could be. Somewhere my drive and motivation was lost, and I'm having trouble finding it. It's one of my biggest problems at the moment, if not the largest, but now that I've written it out and accepted it in a way, it feels better.

That's all!
I'm going to wrap up this post and prepare for a nice long sleep - at least until I have to get up and get ready for a day of work. I'm working on a weekly basis and it really takes a chunk out of me, physically and mentally. A long and tiring day of work has me starting the school week fatigued and a one day weekend isn't the greatest to look forward to. However I think that even working such a small amount (compared to those employed full-time) is an amazing way of stepping into a different pair of shoes, and it really does help me appreciate the hours of work my parents put in. They don't get the simple pleasure of freedom after 3:00 p.m., let alone the weekend off.

Sorry for keeping you here even though I said I was going to end the post! Until next time my friend.

January 2, 2017

There's so much to tell you

Oh, bolded headings are back...?
Yeah! For the time being at least. As I start typing away for this post, I realize that it will be difficult for you to understand exactly which paragraph falls with what topic and so on. For that reason I figured it's going to be nice to have some order to this chaos. Anyhow, get nice and comfy wherever you are, grab a nice warm drink if you can, and settle down for some time to read Kevin's terrible blog post.

The past
I have definitely covered this whole "identity crisis" on this blog, multiple times in fact, but it really is a prevalent thing that comes up all the time.

Everybody is self-conscious, and that's good! I feel as if I'm more self-conscious than most, and this stems from being teased in elementary school (and even high school) for my clothing and tendencies. It's not a sob story; the whole teasing experience was light and I enjoyed healthy relationships with others and even those who did the teasing. As a result, I put a lot of thought into my appearance and mannerisms, which has made me into a more conscientious person. I think this is one of the best things about me, if not the best (not that there is much, haha, self-deprecating humour).

A few years ago I was a person who was very outgoing and energetic. At some point (I'm not sure when) I shifted my behaviour towards being calm and collected, but in a charismatic and charming way. The reason I wanted to develop these traits was so that I could become my ideal of a good leader. I can't say that it's been a complete success, and for that reason I wonder if it would have been better to stay the way I used to be. I think about other "versions" of me in parallel universes, but ultimately I think it's futile to do so and I try to be happy that I'm me.

The present
Right now I'm... both happy and unhappy with who I am. I'm glad that I'm leading a fulfilling life, and I'm experiencing that "rosy high school life" I always longed for, but at the same time I know that there's something more. Not a better life, but a better me. I don't think the path I'm taking is one I will regret - if anything, it's something that I'm "destined" for. I suppose right now I'm in a bit of a slump or a boring part of my life, kinda like I'm waiting for the next chapter.

Life is good though. I have the privilege of attending a school where I can grow and expand my reach, I work part-time and have indispensable income, I have a loving and supporting family, and I get to share all of this with some awesome people. About two years ago I would have done anything for my current life, and now that I have it, I'm surprised that I don't feel as content as I expected. On the bright side, that means that there's still so much out for me to work towards, even if at the moment I'm not too sure what those things exactly are.

It does feel like there is something missing, and I think that something is a sense of accomplishment or significance. Though I have the opportunity to do this by leaving a legacy and mark on my school as a leader in the community, nothing I have done so far has really met the bar. It's demoralizing, but hopefully with the new year things get better.

The future
I'm always worried about the future. One of the most pressing thoughts is how my financial situation will be, say 10 years down the road. My parents have given me everything - they have dedicated the last 17+ years of their lives to my brother and I. I feel so strongly the need to repay them for their immense dedication, and it's not that I have been pressured by them to do so, it's more so that they deserve it.

With my last chapter of high school quickly coming to an end, the next arc of my life will begin with my adventures in post-secondary. The plan that has always been instilled in me is: high school -> great post-secondary institution -> well-paying career. Naturally I'd like to end up with a job that pays well and that I enjoy, but we can call that an secondary goal. I've never once doubted the integrity of this plan because it is the best way that I can make myself and my parents happy with what I have accomplished.

But really, my end goal is to live in one of those nice modern apartments with my partner and a dog, working a job I enjoy that comes with decent hours and pay, and making sure my parents are proud of what I have done. It might be hard to find an apartment that takes kindly to dogs, but the dog can wait until we get a house and move in and start a cozy little family. It's a nice image isn't it?

The lost ones
It's funny because I briefly touched on this with two of my friends on a walk - how amazing it is that we can share such brief but intimate connections with others. What seems like so many years ago, I used to go my friend's house nearly every day after school, sometimes staying for dinner (a huge thank you to the parents for putting up with me, I'm sorry I intruded so much), and at the very end of it, getting a ride home. We were so close, and now there isn't even a "Hello" in the halls.

It's a sad feeling, amplified because I am the reason why things are this way. Even when the rift is not caused by me, or maybe it's just out of our control, it's still such an immense feeling of sadness. It gnaws you to the bone whenever you think about it, and it will never leave you, for when you share those unique moments with your friends, you create memories that are irreplaceable, for better or worse.

That's not to say it's all wilted flowers and dark skies - I hardly think about the lost ones. Instead, I try to be glad that I had the chance to be something in their life, and I hope that they can remember me as I was in our favourite times together.

This blog
I'm in disbelief that it has actually been over five years since I published my first post! I've been neglecting this blog and not writing many posts or maintaining it, but I think you'll be glad to see the reappearance of a familiar theme and a brand new banner for the holiday season! My intentions were to get this post up by Christmas, but as you can see, it's already two days into 2017. With that, I hope you have all had a good holiday season, and I wish you a belated Happy New Year! Hope you'll continue to check up on this blog throughout the coming year and continue to support me through that way and more.

December 24, 2016

Summer 2016 Final Thoughts

- WARNING: THE FOLLOWING POST MAY CONTAIN SPOILERS -

Quick message before we hop right into things! I have found myself really busy with schoolwork and extracurricular commitments, and as such the only time I have been watching anime is just before turning in for bed. Even at that, I might fall asleep before the episode ends, and I never get around to finishing it.

With that being said, this might be one of the last "full review" posts for a long time (they're half-baked since I'm writing these months after I finished them). You'll also notice that there isn't as much meat in the reviews. Anime just doesn't have a place in my life right now, and it's sad to say that, but hopefully one day there will be yet another First Impressions. Who knows? Maybe there will be one next season c:



91 Days (12)

I Rate: 7.5
One Sentence: Though unable to fully utilize its potential, 91 Days still masterfully relays the story of revenge sparking an endless chain of killing.

91 Days starts off great - you have this depressed and empty protagonist who gets tangled in an elaborate revenge and corruption plot. It's an interesting premise, and the atmospheric elements of the anime are done wonderfully. The anime does lose itself over its run, and I don't think it ever lived up to what viewers were expecting in their minds.

Our main characters are pretty interesting for the most part: Angelo is an anti-hero, but you feel sympathy and pity him for his situation, and Nero is a surprisingly grounded and morally conscious person, for his close involvement with the mafia.

The story in 91 Days is a roller coaster, and sadly not in the good way. At times the show peaks at its greatness, and delivers a profound episode, and at other times the episode is forgotten within the next hour. This detracts from the show, and in the end I would say the watch is not worth it.

Best Girl: Fio, for making a killer onion soup


Amaama to Inazuma (4/12, dropped)

I Rate: 7.2
One Sentence: What happens when you throw a single dad, an annoying little kid, and a hungry high school student together into a cooking pot.

I don't have too much to say about this one. Really don't like Tsumugi (is that her name? I've forgotten by now). Dropped the show early on, tried to continue watching on several occasions, but this will likely end up being another Re-Kan! Then again, it's hard to be as dull and uninteresting as Re-Kan!

Best Girl: Kotori, she's pretty cool


Orange (13)

I Rate: 7.7
One Sentence: A refreshing spin on the overdone romance/drama categories, with themes of sadness and friendship that are conveyed well.

I think Orange got a lot better as it continued with its run, and I have to say that the whole parallel universe thing is done pretty well (as long as you can stretch your imagination a little) to add to the story.

The art is somewhat hard to get accustomed to, but it's something nice to look at once you get past your initial differences with it. Something the producers did very well was making the characters feel realistic. The behaviour of the cast in Orange was reminiscent of some of my high school days (not that I'm done high school or anything) and it's easy to relate to their actions.

The story is something different from the usual - featuring some dark twists and weaving of the time travelling throughout. It starts off relatively plain, but improves. Would recommend if you're exhausted of others from the genre, but there are definitely better ones out there.

Best Girl: as one of the only level headed characters, I gotta say Takako


Re:Zero (25)

I Rate: 8.7
One Sentence: Arguably the greatest thing ever made since sliced Rem I mean what.

It's a shame that I'm not putting much effort into this post because Re:Zero deserves much much more than what I'm going to give it. There are countless other reviews that are undoubtedly better and actually analytical of the disgusting beauty that Re:Zero is, but here is my little take on the show.

Let's start with some of the technical things! For starters, Re:Zero looks great and there are some stunning scenes in the anime. The art is clean and crisp (how I think it should usually be), really quite conventional, but it ends up contrasting with its subjects in a sort of wonderfully ugly way - the prevalent examples being Subaru's insanity, Petelgeuese and the many raw and powerful scenes of gore. The music and sound were other remarkable aspects of Re:Zero, with some truly memorable songs (the one that struck me the most was "Stay Alive," which literally sends shivers down my spine even now).

And now onto the characters. Subaru is easily one of my favourite characters of all time. The amazing thing about his design are the dynamic changes he undergoes. He starts off as your standard MC-who-is-weak-but-miraculously-saves-the-day, and the viewer gains more and more respect for him as the tribulations become increasingly difficult. I can say for myself (and others will agree) that I enjoy looking for similarities between the protagonist and myself - it's natural to look at what makes a character cool and then reflect those onto yourself. Eventually you start "becoming" the character, and Re:Zero takes advantage of this to throw the viewer into a personal crisis by turning Subaru into the character that we most despise. Suddenly you're conflicted as to whether you are still "Subaru" or not, further increasing the conflict you would have experienced normally. The other main players in Re:Zero are interesting in their own rights, however nobody really experiences much growth asides from Rem. Some of the characters are used as plot devices, and I could even argue that Emilia is one large, central plot device, simply as a convenient motivation that Subaru constantly has.

There are many different phases of story in Re:Zero, and it can feel like a romcom one episode and a shounen the other. While this could have easily turned sour, I found it interesting and a refreshing start to each episode that way. The first half of the season is used to introduce and develop the characters (pretty much just Subaru) while getting the viewers acclimated to the setting. Where everything goes south and Subaru loses himself is in episode 13, which includes one of my favourite scenes of all time. After that the show feels a bit unsteady and all over the place, but soon it's established that this part of the season is the redemption of Subaru and it is pretty much an action anime by then.

I'm sure that I didn't do justice to how highly I regard Re:Zero, so I definitely urge you to try out an episode or two.

Best Girl: Kinda sucks how Emilia can come in last episode and steal it from Rem, but yeah, it's her


ReLIFE (13)

I Rate: 8.0
One Sentence: Yet another high school romance kinda thing, except it isn't exactly high school, and there is a rather nice and heartwarming reveal at the end of it all.

ReLIFE reminds me a lot of when I started watching anime in terms of the feelings that it invoked from me and the fact that I started off with a lot of light-hearted, simple, yet wholesome series. The premise puts a creative spin on the saturated mess of SoL and executes everything to near perfection. It's limitations lie in its simplicity, however that is nothing to be ashamed of.

There are very few reasons as to why anybody would dislike the characters in ReLIFE, and I'm glad to say that I do not have any. Maybe it's because I'm a teenager myself and I can see myself in the cast, but who knows?

Art is very clean, conservative, with a slightly lower saturation of colours to produce a sort of realistic palette. Music isn't anything outstanding, but I thought the opening was great (actually, listening to it now, I find it quite catchy) and exemplifies the valuable period of our lives that we call youth.

ReLIFE plays out like a very classic high school drama, and remains consistent and strong throughout its duration. It is improved by the interesting circumstances of our main character Kaizaki

Best Girl: GOTTA GIVE IT TO AN ME BOYS


Rewrite (13)

I Rate: 7.5
One Sentence: At first a pain to get through, and then turns into what feels like a rushed mess, but actually ends with an intriguing message.

So when I actually started this post the second season wasn't confirmed, though it was very blatantly hinted at. Some time between the end of Rewrite and now, the second season was announced! Something to keep in mind as I briefly run over exactly what happened.

Rewrite stays very faithful to its visual novel source for the first half of the season before it starts to develop its own independent plot line. We see a lot of events from the common route (naturally some stuff has to be skipped to compress everything into 13 episodes) but the anime ends off with an original ending. The gang of Kotarou and his harem stumble across the rainbow river and then all of them start disappearing from his life. Suddenly the city is being run over by giant monsters and literally everybody dies.

It's a shocking ending, something that I definitely did not expect to see (maybe because I didn't get far enough in the VN), but the blow is softened by an epilogue, where Kagari (the key to everything) is seen tracing a line on some sort of TRON-esque board, where there are a bunch of lines and connections and stuff. The line (symbolizing the world that was just shown in the anime) leads her finger to a dead end, and you can infer that Kagari will "jump" to another world, where her friends survive and everything is swell. It was a pretty good ending in my books, able to keep the entire value of the ending for this season while also having the opportunity to explore a different path. I'll be looking forward to how the second season turns out.

Best Girl: This rendition of Kagari is pretty cool, though I only finished the Kotori and Chihaya routes, so wouldn't know if she's like that or not in the visual novel


Shokugeki no Souma: Ni no Sara (13)

I Rate: 8.3
One Sentence: Continues right with the Autumn Elections and starts the Stagiaire arc off, same good ol' Shokugeki no Souma.

We're introduced to a few new characters and we learn some more about some overlooked old characters, but for the most part it feels the same: quirky characters who each have a strong trait that make the person. A few of the Polar Star residents were deprived of their screen time to make this happen, but it prevents any chance of the show becoming stale.

Music is hypey and gets you in the mood for some finger-licking goodness, and without the superb animation the memorable scenes of Shokugeki no Souma wouldn't be memorable at all.

This season of Shokugeki no Souma feels a lot like the previous, and it may be, but that is far from a bad thing. Much like its predecessor, Shokugeki no Souma: Ni no Sara is a delightful and engaging show that draws in its audience with the absurd yet amazing world of food that it presents. The season ends with Souma losing in a three-way tie in the finals (this is earlier on), but displays some of Souma's immense growth and later adventures (the Stagiaire arc, but nothing past that).

Best Girl: NONE OTHER THAN THE MIST EMPRESS HERSELF, HINAAAAAAKOOO

November 20, 2016

Identity

Long time no see! I've actually been working on the Final Thoughts for the summer season (at a super fast rate of five characters per second) and felt like I couldn't post anything else before I finished that. Obviously you can see a change of heart since I'm here, but less of this and more about stuff that pertains to the title.

I was sitting in my physics class a few days ago and lab groups were going up and presenting their approach to finding the elastic potential energy stored in a toy gun. When one of the students went up and did their presentation, I found myself thinking about my history with that person. This led me to realize what changes that person had gone through since I first met them, and for the first time I actually looked at that person. Sounds corny right?

But yeah, it was an eye-opening experience. I saw things about that person that I had never seen before, and it was crazy because I had always assumed there was nothing else to see. It wasn't even that I judged that person by their cover solely, it was that I had completely misunderstood the cover.

That got me to thinking about how those around perceive me, and makes me wonder if anybody else has thought the same about me.

Me. Speaking of that. Heh.

I went to the UBC tour today with my good pal Jeff and got a tiny (and probaly incorrect) notion of what life on campus is like. To sum up my visit, I'll just steal something that I said to Philman about the experience: "But yeah I'm just enamored by the atmosphere there." Going to UBC has this certain glow to it, and to say that I successfully graduated from UBC is an accomplishment. Who knows though, at this point I'm just hoping to get in.

Anyhoo, thanks for stopping by to listen. It felt good to let some of these thoughts see the light of day. See you next time!

EDIT: So I actually finished this post after midnight... happy birthday to me?

September 29, 2016

Holy it's pretty much October

It's been a really quick first month of school and responsibilities and work are already starting to pile up, giving me just a taste of what's to come. Under some advice I've started working on my Grad Trans and Grad Profile, so hopefully my efforts now will take some stress off me in the future. In terms of my workload, it's been surprisingly light. That's to be expected as it is the beginning of the year, but I thought by now I would have much more work. However work is only half of the situation (probably less than that even), and I have taken on a lot of responsibilities this year.

Leading Students' Council is definitely proving more difficult than I initially thought, but hopefully I can smooth things out as we progress through the year. The responsibility of being on Students' Council along with various other councils and a volleyball team has me running around the place, but all this adds to what will surely be a memorable senior year.

I think the way I'm going about with Students' Council is better than previous years, but it isn't quite "the legendary year" that many of us expected. We've only had one event but with our upcoming Club's Day I hope we'll have a positive reception and time planning.

Anyhow, that's all from me for now. I kinda puked all over this post and just wrote whatever I felt like at the time. Wait another month and maybe I'll be back with another mediocre and confused post :)
 
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