Just Trudging Through Life

That Moment

Have you ever felt one of those moments where you want to drop everything, lie down, and think really hard about why you are doing the things you do? I'd like to think all the things I'm doing right now, I'm just doing so that I have.. something to look forward to. Happiness maybe. But then again, I've been "happy" these past few days, although it doesn't feel like the old happiness I used to harbor inside myself. So does that mean that I'm really just getting ready for nothing? Does that mean all the things I'm doing right now will just lead to this... fake happiness? Maybe. It's one of the reasons why I wish time travel was already here. I would really do anything just to take a small peak at the future.

Sometimes I wish that life was all just some sort of silly joke and that one day I'll wake up. Not wake up like life was all a dream, but wake up as in my whole life was a simulation and I'm finally ready.

Blogging Has Slowed Down

I have to say that my little world of blogs have kind of fallen apart. Probably because we, teenagers who have minimal experience in the "real" world, don't really know what's important in life. I remember talking to another person and commenting on this one mutual "friend". I believed that this friend was stuck in her own little world and that she really didn't have a sense of what was important in life because she just hadn't developed that sense of maturity. I realize that I don't really have a sense of what's important.

Anyhow, most of my friend's blogs are dead, near dead, or just hanging in there. I'd like to say that my blog is standing up there, but hey, my blog is not great. I still have to reach that next stage of maturity before I can actually do something here. But until then, here's what I have.

Slowed Down Posts

As you can see, my last few posts have been really spread out on the calendar. It's a huge combination of I-don't-have-anything-to-write, I'm-to-lazy, and I-don't-have-a-computer. Now that I think about it, I probably will have my posting basis as weekly or near weekly.

I've only experienced little less than 11 hours of the day, but I have to say I'm feeling pretty good for once. I'm a 8. Anyhow, I'm going attend to other matters, so goodbye.

"Begin at once to live, and count each separate day as a separate life." - Seneca