Feeling Like My Old Self

Relaunching Something Like TBOL

After a lot of thought and prompt from a friend who had previously read my failure of a short novel, The Benefits of Life (or TBOL for short), I've finally decided to relaunch the short novel.

It's been a while since I've really thought about what I write (excluding this blog), and I think this will be a nice change for once. My last run at this novel ended with me out of ideas and tired of writing. I think I've gone through a considerable lot and maybe this time I'll lower the mark and actually finish the novel.

Past experience has shown nothing but failure in personal projects such as TBOL, but I hope I can finally accomplish something in this life of mine.

School's Nearing The End

Finally there's only roughly two months left of school, and it's nice to know that I can look forward to a summer full of just relaxing and letting go of everything. I always tend to over worry about the smallest things and then even the details I worry about. So I'm glad that school will be coming to an end relatively soon. I guess I've just been tired of what I think about life (along with over worrying, over thinking is another habit of mine).

Back To The Regular Self

The bright side of all this is that I seem to be returning to what I considered my "old life". I'm starting a project that has a low success rate. I've got all my homework done and I'm not buried in any more work. My social life is not in a ruin. My love life has (still is) been a hit and miss. Everything... seems to be like the usual. It's only when I don't have something preoccupying my time, I have tons of homework, my social life seems to be ruined, and I'm in a "relationship", that my life will either have that as normal, or just give me this overall gloomy mood.

For some random reason, I feel like I've been growing a lot lately. I've taken on responsibilities and tried new things. I got over fear (unfortunately not all of them), and accepted that some things were the way they are, and you can only do a certain amount to change it. For those reasons and more, my day is a 9.

"To love for the sake of being loved is human, but to love for the sake of loving is angelic." - Alphonse de Lamartine