I Feel Dread

Probably Because...

I just finished about four hours of Skyping with a group of grade sevens and eights, and I feel like... carp (yes, yes, not serious enough to not be carp). Maybe it's the lack of water, but definitely the call had something to do with it. The whole time I felt sick and like I didn't fit in at all. They all had their own problems and no matter how much I tried they wouldn't listen to my advice. I feel like they had all the fun and sucked the life out of me.

But I'm not being fair. It's just how I am. They're completely innocent.

Not Ready

Everything feels really... dry and lifeless. There's no point anymore. Why do I do this? I don't know. I don't feel like doing anything. It's just another one of those days. I don't get it. Everything just feels terrible. All because of one stupid Skype call that I joined.

I'm not ready for anything. All the things are coming at me like a train, and I'm not ready for them. I'd rather just get hit at this point. Goodnight people. I'm a low 6 tonight. 'Till next time then.

"Remember when life's path is steep to keep your mind even." - Horace