The complex in question is a related group of emotionally significant ideas that are completely or partly repressed and that cause psychic conflict leading to abnormal mental states or behaviour.
I don't have a complex, but I am complex. At times I think that I may be afflicted by several complexes, and the rest of the time I feel normal. Recently I have been experiencing this devastating mood swings that turn a sweet day into a sour one. I haven't discovered the root cause of it all, but I suspect that it has something to do with my "pseudo complex" and tendency to over-analyze.
What is this pseudo complex that I speak of?
After some brief reading of various complexes and disorders, I can't really put a finger on what I'm feeling. I am sure that all humans experience the same emotions as me, and that I come off as pretentious when I claim to have a complex, even if I dub it a pseudo complex.
I cannot stand being inferior or "second" in terms of importance and priority. Actually, let me refine that. Say I am talking to a person (whether it be in person or off a messaging platform), and out of nowhere that person expresses concern or some sort of positive feeling towards a third party. This makes me feel terrible. It is as if I am unimportant, and that I mean nothing, and these sentiments, these thoughts, they are disgusting.
But I can't help it. Along with this, I read into things much too far, and make assumptions that ultimately ruin a relationship.
Sorry, this sounds like whining. I'll stop here. It's the ramblings of a sulky teenager who has nothing to be upset about.
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