On Saturday I went to Math Challengers at UBC and I admit I had a really fun and good time being there. I learned quite a lot of things (such as how pressure really works) and also experienced sadness. Why sadness? Well, all around me there are people who are either destined to be brilliant and known in life and then there are people who have no hope for their future. And then there's just me.
I honestly don't want to die unknown. I want to be in books, I want somebody else besides my family and friends to be crying for me. I know it sounds greedy, but I really want to leave these world impacting at least a small part of it.
I guess that's what motivates me. I try to be better than others because I want to end off my life impacting. I try to be better than that girl I saw at the Math Challengers that was ranked first overall because I want to have that smile that she was wearing.
So That's Why I've Been Down
That's the reason why I've been down (besides the pressure of homework collapsing on me and the fact that I'll probably finish like so much science tomorrow), although like most things in life, it's my fault.
Goodnight
I have school tomorrow, but I'm really too lazy to get off my butt and go shower and take care of my hygiene (I'll just do that later).
My number for today is 8. I feel decent enough to say that. I'm still kind of behind and not sure in my math and science homework, but nevertheless I will catch up. Anyhow, you guys and gals have a great evening while I'll bury myself inside my mind.
"In love the paradox occurs that two beings become one and yet remain two." - Erich Fromm
Well for a start, you can begin your homework earlier. The benefit of this would be two-fold: (1) you won't feel the crushing sensation of too much work at the last minute, and (2) be able to devote more time to refining academic/technical skills. Of course, for both to happen, you also have to spend less time in less productive, leisure activities, such as online chatting and gaming. This by no means entails abandonment of what you consider "fun", but rather moderation and exercising self-control. Finding a mentor would help too.
ReplyDeleteWell for a start, we have lifes. The benifits of this is two-fold. First, we get more connections to others and their friends meaning for example refrances will be easier to obtain. Second it drives your interest. By having some fun doing leisure activities it makes you want to do better in school so you can get a good job so u can get good money to go to maybe another country and have FUN
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