Photos

Looking Back

So I just finished rearranging the photos in this mini photo album that I've had in my drawer for what seems like the day I was born. It has a bunch of pictures from when I was around (my guess) five years of age and then it jumps from there to some other random point of time. I realized that I was missing a baby picture of myself, so I decided to dig through my family's giant photo album and snatch one from there (I can now say that there is a missing photo in the album among all my baby pictures).

All the photos in my little album are in (roughly) chronological order. Me being me, I took out all of them so I could put the baby picture where it should be. Right at the start. While I was looking through the photos, I realized that I was missing a lot of photos from my last few years of elementary and my first year of high school. I remember there two really just great friends printed off a bunch of us together having an amazing time, and they put it on my locker for my birthday.

On the last day of school (or near that time anyhow) we had to clean out our lockers. I found in my locker the same wallpaper and photos on it that those two had made for me. I didn't know what to do with it. Some part of me wanted to keep it, because I hoped that we would have more of those moments frozen in time together, but another part of me wanted to just trash it. I ended up doing something silly (flipping a coin probably) to ultimately decide what I would do with it. As fate had it, the coin flipped a certain way and I threw it away.

Honestly that is one of my biggest regrets in my life. Those frozen moments in time I can never get back, and the way things are looking right now (mostly because of me), I will never be able to have that type of moment again with them. So I'm sad because of that. But happy because it happened.

One day I hope that the album will be filled and when I die that it will be shown at my funeral. I hope that the people who are caught in that frame of time with me will be able to smile and remember lost times.

But I guess I've got a long way to go.

Dating.

My mom asked me last night if I had a girlfriend (which I honestly and quickly replied no to), but that has sparked the next topic for this post. So I've decided to just get it over with and speak my view on dating (at this age at least).

No. I think there should be no dating at this age. I've said this before maybe once or twice, but I just don't agree with it. Of course, I've been stupid and I've done things like that, but after being able to think about it without the influence of being in a "relationship", I think that's it's just a bad idea in general.

I think that high school love is short lived. You meet new people, and you feel attraction towards them. Of course with new people new love interests start. Some of my friends started dating and I can say that almost every single relationship has ended within a year.

But then what's the point? What is the point of breaking hearts and being heart broken? I think that you're just setting yourself up for a painful experience when you jump into a relationship irrationally. I'm not saying that I despise on everybody who's in a relationship right now (I actually wish them the best of luck). These are just my thoughts.

I'm Stupid ^-^

I've just done some stupid things in life. Hope this won't be one of them... again.

Goodnight. I'm an 8 today. I've actually been an 8 for a while. Hopefully that'll stick around.

"The finest steel has to go through the hottest fire." Richard M. Nixon