Things Make Me Sad

Sometimes When I Wake

It just feels like it's all so much. It all comes crashing down on me and I need to collect so much effort just to get myself out of bed. By then I'm so unmotivated by the terribleness of everything that I don't feel like eating and I end up going to school without breakfast. Then I start eating lunch in second block and waste away my lunch. Hunger starts coming to me in fourth block and I just can't wait to get home and get something to eat.

Then there are things that I see everywhere, in the halls, outside school. People being happy and in groups, secure with each other. At comfort with anybody and everybody that comes their way. I long for that.

I'm so not unique. I don't have anything special going for me. The worst part is that I want to be really good at something. When I take everything into account I'm not outstandingly great at anything. I'm just okay, and lately I keep thinking that I'll only ever be okay. It'd be different if I just wanted to be okay.

At times I'm done with everything.

Don't Worry

Those are just thoughts that have been clouding up my mind as of the past bit. I feel so tired from this week. Physically and mentally. Various muscles are sore all over and I'm sick with dealing with everything. But you shouldn't look too much into it. If I was really sad I'd just take a walk for a bit and contemplate about everything. I'm not at that point yet though.

How's your week been?

Night ^^

I've been catching up with my sleep as of late. If I had to rate today (which I am obligated to anyways), I'd call it off as a 7.

"If you wish to reach the highest, begin at the lowest." - Publilius Syrus