Everything.

Problems

It feels like my generation of people don't really know what's important. But I'm not saying that I do either, because I am horrible at prioritizing things in my life. We talk about how so and so should "get together", how this latest pop star was burned for some public thing. It's so stupid honestly. Yet we can't stop doing it.

People have their own problems and they keep their own feelings welled up inside them. I think those problems are important. You never tell anybody and then you end up just feeling worse and worse about yourself. Maybe for that reason I started this blog.

Whenever somebody talks about his/her "problems", I more often than not, do listen in. Most problems are just... not problems. Not major ones at least. But I do hear these problems, and at the end of the day I'm able to gauge how... significant each problem was.

So there you have it. We're stupid. I'm stupid.

Am I Losing Friends?

To answer that question, we have to define what a friend is. I mean, what is a friend? Somebody who hangs out with you? Somebody who talks with you on Facebook a lot?

Everyone has their own definition of friend. I may see this one person as a friend in my eyes, but that person might just think of me as a person he/she just knows. So for the purpose of this question, I'll go by my definition of a friend... which I don't have. I'd like to say that a friend is one who you can share secrets with and trust that person to keep it. One who doesn't mind your company, and even may enjoy it. The definition of friend on Wikipedia puts that it a more complete way, but if this definition is correct, then that means the majority of the school... are not my friends.

The people I usually hang out with were my closest friends. It's come to a point where they have become my only friends, because I only see them now. So they are still my closest friends, but they are also my only friends.

That "logic" confuses my definition of a friend.

So am I actually losing friends from my pool of friends? Sure, I am gaining friends from my other classes, but are they actually friends? I haven't even known them for a month and I have known these people for a year. I feel like I'm losing friends.

Then again, it's either I'm losing friends or somebody is losing a friend.

Beliefs

We finished watching a movie called Chocolat (which by the way was good) in French class and the one thing that really rung out from the movie was how "single minded" the villagers were because of their religion. After thinking about it some more, I realized that it wasn't only for religion, but also people who had very strong beliefs.

The film showed how far somebody would go for his/her beliefs (which in the film's case was a religion). So how far is too far? When do you become so clouded and blinded by your goal that you throw away everything else and even break your own beliefs? It's scary how far somebody will go to reach a goal.

I'm not saying that you shouldn't set goals (not at all), but that if you've got something big set up for yourself, watch that you don't fall while climbing the ladder to your goal.

Just An Early Post

Today was one of those days when I just don't want to post at night. A lot of stuff is going on and it feels like my friends are kind of detaching themselves away from me, as if they were preparing for me to abandon them as friends. It kind of hurts (although I'm not sure if that's their real intention) that I don't have them as close friends anymore, but still.

Everything will be okay in the end. And since everything isn't, it can't be the end. That's it for today's post, I'll blog whenever I blog next. I'm an 8 this morning and I hope you tune in next time for my next post. Also, don't look down when you're sad, because you're always telling me to look up.

"A smile is a curve that sets everything straight." - Phyllis Diller