The Wrong Intention

We Assume

As humans it's a natural habit to assume things. We naturally try to figure out things and infer with the information that we are given and we make up an assumption. There are many types of misleading. A girl could be misleading a guy into thinking that she likes him when she really doesn't (or vice versa). You could assume that your family won't mind you staying over at your friend's house for an extra hour when they actually really do.

So we end up with these wrong ideas. We get caught up in them and when if you find out that you've thinking the wrong thing the whole time, you get extremely depressed. It's difficult to read people and what they are feeling and thinking, but I hope that it will be a skill I acquire in the future.

Everybody Has Either Gotten Worse Or Better

A week or two of school has passed by and I think I can say that a lot of my friends have become so much better. Then again, there are people who seem to have become worse. It's like everybody has either gotten 100% more arrogant or 100% more compassionate and kind.

While I cannot say this for sure, I pretty much already believe it. I realize that I don't hang out with my friends that much anymore, but I think I have seen just enough to judge them appropriately. So if you're still a friend that I talk to everyday, then you have definitely become better. At least I think so.

Quiet

I've become much more quiet in class. It's only when everybody else in the room is talking, I need to ask something, or I'm helping my peers that I speak at all. Most of my time in class is focused on doing the work because for once in life I feel challenged in my classes.

Being quiet has its benefits though. I don't get tangled up in anything and I now realize that listening is a valuable asset to have. I find I enjoy listening to people now, although it may just be that I am too timid to approach some of the older people in my class.

Goodbye

I am currently in a state of infatuation that I cannot climb out of. I drove into a ditch and furiously tried to drive myself out of it, only digging myself further into the ditch. Now all I have to do is get broken. I'm starting to doubt any feelings that I have towards any girls because I think it's all just infatuation that I'm experiencing. Nothing is real. Depressing huh?

If you a good reader and can read in between the lines while figuring out what type of mood I'm in, you'll know roughly what's happening to me. Typically I'm in a really gloomy mood because of this whole infatuation concept, but if I remember correctly, everything will be okay at the end, and if it isn't okay, it's not the end. I'm a 7 today.

"To love is to admire with the heart; to admire is to love with the mid." - Theophile Gautier