It's like with everything new: you enjoy it for the first bit, but later on it grows old. However once it's gone, you realize how much that you've taken it for granted and how much you want it back. Unfortunately time is not one of those things we can just "get back". While you may not regret any of your life, some of us just wish that we had more time.
So it's a new month and it will be a new term for the school year pretty soon. I'm extremely anxious to see how I fare in terms of grades. In all honesty, I really want to keep my GPA at 4.0, but I think that if I got one B or something, then I would be fine. It would take off the stress of trying to keep my grades so high and... that would be very nice. But of course I'll always be trying to get the best that I can get.
November's a nice month. It is chilly by now, but I like seeing my breath whenever I step outside. A few days ago I was getting to school early for band and I stepped outside near the soccer pitch. There was a light blanket of fog covering the field and I could see the sun rising over the horizon. I took note of the time, but I never arrived early enough to catch it again. But at that moment I was just able to admire the natural beauty of the world and I hope that I'll be able to have many more of those moments again.
I apologize for not writing a post yesterday (even though I hinted largely that I would). For some reason I was caught up with everything that had happened that day and I just... forgot. That's the plain and simple truth. I actually did not do that much this Halloween. What I really did was stay home and listen to the sounds of people setting off fireworks near the school (or outside the street, my perception of sound is quite bad from what I have gathered).
I can't say that I've grown out of trick-or-treating because I haven't really gone that many times ever. For some reason the idea of dressing up and knocking on houses screaming, "Trick or treat!" has never much appealed to me. I haven't exactly nailed down what the reason is for this, but I just know that's what it is.
End Off On A Cheery Note
I've tried to be as cheery as I can this post. It isn't difficult because I actually have emotions right now. Most of the time when I'm writing I just don't feel anything. Sometimes I do, and on the rare occasion I absolutely snap and just write off a really really horrid post about my problem. Yeah...
Finally the weekend. This week has really taken me down a notch. I can't wait to just sleep in and... well... sleep in. High spirits put me at an 8, and maybe I'll stay there for a bit.
"There is no forgiveness in nature." - Ugo Betti
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