I figured that I should put up a post on Thanksgiving (regardless of the fact that I have a hard time trying to be thankful), so here we are with another sure-to-be-bad post. There's actually going to be nothing about Thanksgiving in this post (besides this part), so if you're looking for some sort of corny entry with me listing what I'm thankful for, then you are at the wrong place. I dislike expressing feelings, even to family and good friends because it makes me feel vulnerable. Do I feel invulnerable though? Not really.
More Clannad Feels
So I finally finally finally finished Clannad After Story, and I feel like... what I felt like after I finished Angel Beats! Of course to some extent though. Between both Clannad and Angel Beats!, I'd definitely go for Clannad. The anime just gave a really... emotional roller coaster (as many would say), hitting you in the head with the metaphorical shovel more than once.
What surprised me though was that I didn't cry in the scenes I was "supposed to cry in. Many of my friends told me about tear jerking scenes, and I was ready. But when the scene came on, I couldn't find the tears. Now, this may be because I actually kind of spoiled all the major moments (which now in retrospect I regret), but I'm still not sure if I would have cried or let out a sniffle anyways, even if I had not spoiled it.
I'm really glad that I finished both parts of Clannad and I'll be sure to recommend it to any other people who are interested in anime, just as my friends have done so for me.
Oh yeah, it's also Tomoyo's birthday today (coincidentally). Happy birthday Tomoyo.
Friends (And I) Changed
It's true that I've somewhat left my friends behind as I don't have any classes with them anymore. And while we may pretend that we're still the same friends and still have the same type of relationship that we had last year, it's kind of just a pathetic attempt at bringing back our past. Everything has changed and I don't think that it will ever go back to the way that it was.
But not all is lost. It's not like I'm not friends with them anymore. In fact, maybe I've even grown closer to some friends. I've also met a variety of new people and I can't imagine not meeting them. So change is good. At least in some cases, if not most. The thing is, I think I've finally come to accept this change. A few days back last week at school, I didn't wave to somebody. I used to crave this person's attention like a puppy and now... I don't even wave at this person? It was too late by the time I realized that I should have waved and that I wanted to. Maybe next time.
Feel Happy (:
Feeling sad feels good at times. It's nice to just throw everything away and be carefree and selfish for a bit. Sure, you feel like you're depressed, but most of the time, you're not. In reality you've just made a mountain out of an anthill, and during this period of time, you keep on seeing this mountain instead of the anthill it really is. But the good part is that once you get out, it's just an anthill you can carefully step over.
Feeling happy is great though. It's one of the best feelings in the entire world. Then again though, if you're happy all the time, eventually it just becomes the norm, and then you crave more. So make sure to balance out your life. I guess that's why bad things happen sometimes. I'm an 8 today. I might sound really happy and joyful, but to be honest, I'm just sitting at a computer with a stoic (and at times, thoughtful) expression on my face. Hope you've had a good time here. Until the next entry.
"Genius is initiative on fire." - Holbrook Jackson
that is my favorite quote!
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