June 6, 2016

Uncertainty (2)

I'm sure that I've written about the topic of uncertainty, and knowing myself, there's a good chance I titled the piece Uncertainty as well. In that case...

I present to you, Uncertainty (2).

In my later half of the semester I have found myself struggling in areas that I have not before. To be precise, I have: scored lower than average on a socials test, stumbled in French speaking two times, and have not been able to achieve the marks I desire in chemistry.

Wooooo, talking about it already gets me a bit down. Here's a neat picture of a tree I took a while back (to which I added vignette).


Random picture inserted? Sweet.

With my recent results, I've grown disheartened about my future and doubtful that I'll be accepted into the universities that I'm interested in. However, the one weird part about this is that... I'm not even doing "poorly" in my classes. In fact, two of those three classes will have little to no significance on my admission to post-secondary, and yet... it feels terrible.

I think this will be one of the more difficult moments in my life, the reason being that everything is... wait for it... uncertain (surprise). I hate the feeling of not knowing what I will go through. Once I am homeless, I am homeless (and there is likely little I can do if that happens). Similarly, once I have found a comfortable, not completely tedious job, there is only that to focus on for the next few decades.

Good time to take a break? Good time to take a break. Let's take a nice deep breath; inhale... and exhale. Wow great job! Now once more; inhale... and exhale. And one more time; inhale... and exhale.

Awesome. You're only a few more sentences away from being free to go!

It's been a while since I have felt this shaken up, but whenever I do, I look at this image and feel a bit better. Hopefully you will too if you're looking for something to hold onto.


Thanks for reading, and I'll see you in the next one.




 
Images by Freepik