Honesty

If People Were Honest

I wish people were honest. I know there are some honest people out there, but it's hard to find them. Then there are the people who are outrageously fake. This honesty problem gets so confusing for me that I usually end up doing something stupid and making a mistake. I think that a person isn't telling the truth because something has changed at that person, when that person might have just been telling the truth the whole time, but had something bugging them.

I wish I knew what people thought of me. What they know about me.

To the person I've been bugging these past few days, I'm really sorry (you know who you are). I know you probably don't check this blog as frequently as others may, but I hope that you will eventually see this post one day. We're hanging on a thin thread.

Writing Competition

I realize I haven't really written competitively (I don't think NaNoWriMo counts) ever, so I'm thinking about joining a local writing competition. The theme is "It's Possible", is for grades 8 - 12, and needs to have less than 1,500 words (along with a title). I'm kind of excited for this competition (although I'm not sure if I'm going to actually write anything decent).

Winter Break Relaxation

I was planning to relax this Winter, but it doesn't seem like I'll have that much time with the Science Fair, science homework, and just a bunch of other stuff that I'm trying as hard as I can to carry on my back. It feels like I'm trying to carry too much again.

I'm a 5. I don't really feel the spark of emotion inside me (and my wee bit of sickness may contribute to that) and I feel dead and useless. These next few weeks just may make me or break me.

"While I thought that I was learning how to live, I have been learning how to die." - Leonardo da Vinci

Sometimes I Wonder...

If I Had Gone To Tech

Lately I've been contemplating a lot about what would have happened if I had gone to Tech. I would still know and be in daily contact with the people I grew up with, and I might have actually had an election for grade eight rep. If I had gone, I might have not met the great people at Alpha, but hey, who's the say I wouldn't have met some great people at Tech?

Things in life happen for a reason, and they do eventually explain themselves. It might only take a day, or it might take the rest of your life, but in the end, I believe there will be a time when you know why everything in your life was the way it was.

Might Do A Game Through Of Walking Dead: The Game

So recently my brother got Walking Dead: The Game on our iPad, so you know, I might do a game play on that and possibly put it up for TheEpicosityGuys. Still working out details like how to record it (probably just going to use the app Reflection) and if there's going to be commentary or not (but hey, what's a game play without commentary?).

Anyways, look for that in the future. If I do do a game play, I'll probably put the video on this blog.

Game Tomorrow

The Alpha grade eight basketball boys are playing against Mountain at a home game tomorrow (if you want to come, it's in the large gym after school tomorrow), so naturally I'm pretty pumped up about the game. We've got the jerseys ready, and although we haven't really played together as a team and developed our chemistry, I still have a lot of confidence in my team.

Be sure to look for number 11 if you do go.

Fun

This day has been pretty awesome. I learnt a few things about my friends and now I have a lot of security and confidence in my friendships. I just hope I won't loose this security.

Making oatmeal cookies tomorrow in Foods 8 in the morning, so that's another thing to look forward to. Alec showed me something really neat called Pomodoro and I might apply it to my life (by the way, he also linked me to a helpful Pomodoro timer) since you know, I need a lot more organization. I got a lot of stuff done today (still need to find my pencil case though...), so today I'm feeling great. Like a 9 great.

"Everything is theoretically impossible, until it is done." - Robert A. Heinlein

Something's Not Right

Life Seems To Alright

Ever since I've won student rep, I've gained a lot of responsibilities and also popularity. I regularly get people who say to me in the hallways, "Hey, you're that kid who was speaking." But as it seems as I'm getting more acquainted with the main student body, I'm losing my two best friends. So of course, life is great and all, I'm caught up with everything (except for that pesky Science Fair), but there's something that's just waiting to come out of the dark and stab me.

Realized I Haven't Blogged

I've been looking at my stats for this blog and I see that the views on my blog are dropping. I did a bit of cross checking and turns out I get more views on days that I post, so you know, of course, I want more people to know about this blog. I can do one thing to help that, and that is blog more, but you guys (or gals) can also help me out by sharing.

That'd be nice.

Copying Stargirl

I discovered that I've been fostering a rock collection for a while (now at 15 rocks) and I decided to copy Stargirl. So now I keep a certain number of rocks on the left side of my window, and a certain number on the right side. This number is more towards my personal and deep feelings, whereas the number I add to the end of every post is just my general outside feeling.

Anyways, I started this yesterday, so let's see how long I'll keep this up.

Goodbye

I have a lot of works and commitments that I've made, and I'm just being overwhelmed by everything. There are so many problems that just come after everything. Life is so difficult, even if these words come out of my mouth.

My number for today is a 7. I'm feeling lowly and gloomy. Too much pressure and commitments and such. There's just a really big problem too.

I need five more rocks.

"I just wanna hold your hand. Stare at you like you've got everything I need." - For Nights I Can't Remember by Hedley

My Future Adventures As Grade Rep

Speech Was Today

Today I went up as one of the two grade eight reps to give a little introduction speech. To be honest, I was kind of frightened by the crowd, but when I got up there, I got even more intimidated. I don't think I really showed my fear, but inside, I was just scared that they would reject me as a speaker and rep.

I had spent only a few minutes writing up the speech (roughly 600 words and two and half minutes long) the day before yesterday, yet after I finished speaking the first part, I realized that the rest would not be good enough. I had already got the crowd to laugh a little, so I needed to keep that off.

In my mind, I said, "Screw the script, I'm going improv." So I kept my speech folded in my free hand, and went off rambling about ideas from my speech, but not the actual words. After the crowd laughed a bit, I got more comfortable and started talking freely, just going freestyle if you may.

When I was done, I was a lot more pleased with my "performance" that I had expected. This speech built up my confidence and now I'm just really happy to be the grade eight rep.

Bursts Of Positive

I could have had a spark of positive while I was doing my homework (I felt dreadful while doing it for some reason, but don't a lot of people?), or I could have had it while I was eating. But this burst of positiveness occurred just as I stepped out of my shower. Weird huh?

Anyways, for a few glorious seconds I stood there, just thinking about all the great things in life I would accomplish, how I would go to UBC and tick of all my bucket list. Then in another few seconds it was gone.

Mood swings eh?

Plan To Blog More And Early Merry Christmas

TOWTAKZ is kind of dead lately, so I'm planning to blog a lot more (realized I hadn't put anything up for a long time). Hopefully Tyler and I will finally get together and start talking about restarting TOWTAKZ. Might also think about getting a new template for this blog. It's getting kind of... icky?

Just wanted to say to you guys to have an early Merry Christmas, since we all know the world is going to end on December 21, 2012. Stock up your food items people. Stay safe, and if you see a crack in the ground, don't step on it, because you know, you can break your mom's back and also start an earthquake.

I'm a 9 today. In high spirits because of the successful speech. Can't wait to finally do something as a student rep and help out the school. I've already got my second speech started. And my third. It's all in my head, I just haven't thought of it yet. Anyways, here's one of my lamer quotes.

"The best speaker isn't the loudest or clearest. The speaker can be quiet as a mouse. The speaker doesn't have to do anything. The speaker just needs to know what the people want and when they want it." - Kevin Zou

TBH

To Be Honest

All Facebook people who constantly fill my news feed, one word. STOP. Please just stop with all your silly "TBH"s and random comments. These things don't work realistically, but in our warped and messed up world, people go along with the "flow" and just "play along". We do not only "TBH"s, but also "20 questions", "LMS" and other random things.

First thing's first, "TBH" is for the most part, ineffective. I'm pretty sure the person who had the status that you liked is telling you lies. Well, honestly they're not lies, but that person is over exaggerating the truth. The second thing is that liking the status will only lead to more "TBH"s and nobody wants to have more than one "TBH" in one day from the same person (unless they're so insecure they essentially NEED the compliments). If you're going to do a "TBH", don't do it on Facebook, because to me, that's weak. You need the support of other people to compliment them. You can't compliment somebody without having something in it for you. Weak. And putting it in public view isn't helping my view on your "TBH"ers. That just shows that you want people to be like, "Awww! What a sweet comment!" and other lies like that.

Looking for useless likes on Facebook I find is really just... horrible. That's why I haven't liked any statuses on Facebook. Maybe one day there will be this AWESOME status that will most definitely deserve a like, but if it does, I probably still won't click that like button, since I know that the post is already so awesome, it doesn't even need a like.

I read this other blog very often (in fact, I have my little community of bloggers whose blogs I read and check on really what is just a daily basis), and the blog author put up a post including 20 answers to 20 questions about themselves. I found that to be a good idea, and I found it that way since I knew that person wasn't looking for likes, shares, or attention. She was just being her good old self.

That type of blogging is hard to find these days.

Well, That Seems To Be Enough

Usually when I type this much content, I get very tired and out of ideas, but for some reason I'm very ecstatic (to use a word I learnt from Natty's blog) and full of energy today. I hope you've enjoyed or at least changed your view on Facebook and people because of my "rant" on popular statuses.

Remember the last post? I was a 5 I believe. Today that number has multiplied by 1.8, if you wish to be exact. So if you do the math in your head (or just take out the calculator), then that makes me a good old and more or less normal 9! Things have calmed down quite a bit, and I'm really glad they did. Anyways, sorry for boring you with my post if I did, but you know, I just had to say it somewhere, and as my friend Philman says, "If you wouldn't say it on your blog, don't say it in life."

"Nobody got anywhere in the world by simply being content." - Louis L'Amour

Horribleness

That Feeling

Have you ever had that feeling where somebody is just sitting on your chest, and he's merciless and it seems like he will never get off? I'm pretty sure a lot of people have felt that, and trust me when I say this, you're not alone. I have this feeling very often just every few days.

There's a line in a song called Lose Yourself by Eminem that goes, "He's nervous, but on the surface he looks calm and ready to drop bombs." When I get that feeling, my whole self esteem falls apart and suddenly I can't face people in the hallways or talk to anybody. Lately some events that have happened have caused this feeling to grow and linger. It's been here for about three days.

Whenever I feel this way, something bad usually happens soon after. But all that is bad is not all negative. The pain usually goes away, because I guess what this pain is a pain for knowledge. I want to know something. I want to know the honest and truthful answer. Sometimes I'm confused myself about the question.

Later

I don't feel much like blogging anymore, but I felt that I should at least tell you guys if I'm going to possibly take a break from blogging for a while. Maybe until I feel better. Life really isn't that bad compared to others, but it's also really bad compared to others.

I'm a bad 5 today. I seriously am having a bad time. It'll be a rough few days.

"The art of life is to know how to enjoy a little and to endure very much." - William Hazlitt

Turtle Beaches In And More

Lina!

So my cousin, Lina, recently came home to Vancouver (just yesterday actually), so it's glad to have another member of the group back in Vancouver (still waiting for Alec to come back). Anyways, of course with Lina came my set of Turtle Beaches (although I would have been equally likely to see her come even without the headsets), and I'm enjoying them VERY VERY much. Anyways, just a thank you to my parents that they've heard before, but will probably not see ever on this blog.

Back on topic, Lina is back and school seems to be picking up pace in terms of the amount of homework I'm getting, so posts will probably have even longer intervals between them.

James And Lily

One day when I was walking home from school, I saw this guy walking with this girl. I'm guessing this guy was a senior or a freshman at a university or college, and he was like one of those "gangster" type of people who you tend to avoid on the street. This man however was wearing a purple sweatshirt with the hood on over a hat, and seemed pretty cool. But the outfit didn't make him seem cool.

It was the fact that he was walking and talking. The resemblance to James and Lily in the movie 8 Mile was so close that I was very shocked. You've got this rapper looking guy and this little girl, and he's off telling her about a story about trust (I managed to hear a few words as they passed).

Imagine if life was like that.

Two Kids

Along with Lina came my "nephew" and "niece" (they're just the son and daughter of my cousins, but in Chinese tradition, I'm an uncle to them), and I'm glad to say I'm having a great time with the two year old boy and the four and (as she says) three quarters old girl. They're really busy and fun to play with.

Today I'm a 9. My class went to the Vancouver Aquarium, so I'm glad that I got to spend some time with my friends and just take a break from school. Life seems to be going along pretty well, and the part of road that I'm driving on is going smoothly.

"My life needs editing." - Mort Sahl

Dreams

Lately I've Been Having A Lot Of Dreams

To be very vulnerable and honest, I've been having loads of dreams about relationships and life. All those zombie and weird random ones are slowly going away and are being replaced by relationship fears. So recently I've been filling in dreams a lot more often and frequently in my dream journal. I still have yet to completely read the dreams (preferably later in the morning or AFTER I've done a entry since I tend to forget my latest if I read past dreams), but I've skimmed through a bunch. I'm just trying to see some patterns and similarities and connections between life and dreams.

Dreams are a paradise and a living hell for me. When my mind enters dreamland, it's either very pleased with the day or extremely sulky. Maybe it's just in the middle. Either way, I still enjoy being in dreams more than I hate being in dreams.

Trying To Quickly Wrap This Up

I figured to post on both this blog and my co-op blog and put up something on Facebook/Twitter saying that there'd be a double header post tonight, and it's about five minutes until today will wrap up.

Summing things up, life is going just... great. Sure, there are those little creases that you have to iron out, but life is full of creases. It's just one big sheet of fabric with rough patches and smooth patches (sorry for the sowing metaphors, my mind is currently on my home economics class).

I'm a 8 today. I do realize this is quite a short post, but oh well. There's still a lot of forums and money that I need to hand into the office, so that worries me quite a bit. Still, nothing to make me depressed. I finished all my SCHOOL homework for today, but there's still homework that's assigned by my cousin. Oh well. I guess I'll take a bigger crack at that tomorrow.

"Time is what we want most, but what we use worst." - William Penn

Happy Birthday To Me!

Today I Turn 13

I'm finally turning 13 years old, so I don't know if that makes me a teenager or if I'm still a pre-teen (still have to get things sorted out between age groups). I had an absolutely awesome day today (well, actually the best if you think about it) with the flooding of Facebook notifications about this person who wrote "Happy Birthday" on my wall and my friends just being really awesome to me.

I also got to hang out with two epic friends at Dairy Queen for about two hours, so it was really just a great thing for them to do. There's just this overall great and happy mood for birthdays that I really enjoy. Everybody's happy and kind for one day.

Anyways, I'm having a blast of a birthday and I just can't wait to see what will happen with another person's birthday. Still a lot of birthdays coming up for me and all the other people in the world. We have to make sure that we celebrate each one, each time better than the last.

Now What?

Life is coming along really well and I'm glad that I've somehow managed to balance life and friends together. I just know high school is going to be some of the best years in my life. I just know it. I hope that I'll be able to strive towards those years and make sure that my friends also have a heck of a good time.

"It's Fine"

For people that talk with me a lot online, I say the two words, "It's fine." a lot. I mean, I use it excessively to the point where it sounds like it may be even sarcastic. Let me explain.

If a considerate person tripped me by accident, he/she would say, "Oh, I'm so sorry." and rush to help me. I would say, "It's fine." because I know that the person is considerate and means it and I don't want that person to feel bad, because really, it's nothing.

I'm a very hard person to piss off. Only a few things piss me off, and even those things you have to hit a great extent to actually piss me off.

I take that back. I get pissed off a lot. But the thing is, you have to piss me off to a certain point where I just crack and suddenly "It's fine." Kevin isn't there.

I try to be an easy-to-get-along-with guy, and in nature, I am. But sometimes there are just things that can piss me off.

Night!

I'm not actually going to go to sleep. I'm just saying, "Night." since I'm 99.9% sure I won't be posting again today. I leave out that 0.1% (one person can skip this if they want to since that person knows this is from my short novel) since I know that miracles happen and that I'd be wrong to guarantee completely that something will happen.

Today I'm a 10, of course. It's been a really fun day for me and I've enjoyed it thoroughly. Thanks to all those people who said, "Happy Birthday." and to those who did, but just not online. Anyways, I'll see you in the next post!

It's Been A Long Time

It's Only Been Forever

It seems like I was just walking up the rows to get my graduation medal just the other day. Yet it seems like it's as far away as possible, distant in the universe, buried in my past. It's really ridiculous how time goes by. A day can pass in a second and an hour can pass in a nanosecond. I remember all the feelings and emotions and thoughts I had during key events of my life. Before I went to kindergarten. Before I graduated. The first day of high school.

My nature states me as a generally out going and friendly guy. I get along with what I hope to be everybody. It's funny how in elementary school, I really cared about how people thought about me, and it was extremely easy to get them to like me. Now in high school, I could care less about the people who don't like me. I realize you can't be friends with everybody. Only the people who are worth being friends with should be your friends. Overused line huh?

Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I had done one thing differently. So many parts of my life and hinged on one event that happened. Some of those events I'm happy for. Some of them I regret.

Life's Swell As My Friend Says

When I asked my friend how she was doing, she said, "Swell." So in her words, I say that life is swell for me. I'm doing fine with my work, I've got the weekend coming up, so life is looking up for me. From other blogs, it sounds like life is doing alright too, although when can life be NOT alright compared to other lives?

Let's skip one of my rants about how life is different for everybody and just conclude this topic. Life seriously is going "swell" for me. My personal affairs are perfect and my social relationships are also going great. I said that you can't make everybody like you, and Natty also says in her blog, "You can't like everybody."

Fake

Doesn't it seem like everybody is a fake and so is everything else? I'm sure everybody else has felt this at least once. I've had many occasions where I'm hanging out with people, and then boom, out of nowhere, you're disgusted at how fake you're being and what you're doing just to be "friends" with these people.

Next Post Then

I'll write more about things and thoughts going on inside my mind in the next post, because unfortunately, the average attention span of a human doesn't allow him/her to be able to read any more of my blog. Hey, it's the truth.

Today I'm a 9. I can't wait for the weekend when I can just relax and take a break from school and life overall. Okay, I'm going to go get ready for bed. Night.

"Only those who dare to fail greatly can ever achieve greatly." - Robert Kennedy

A Lot Of Stuff To Blog, Let's Get Started

TOWTAKZ

So TOWTAKZ might be running once again and possibly better. Turns out that Tyler just needed kind of a break (from my perspective, I'm not saying that this is true), and I kind of needed one too. Anyways, Tyler and I are looking to start up the co-op blog once again this time with a new fire.

Part of the relaunching plan of TOWTAKZ is to spend a bit of time on a new design, new content, and a new name (I have to admit, TOWTAKZ sounds quite strange, yet kudos to Tyler for mashing up our blog names like that). That's just a thing to look forward to.

Sigh. NaNoWriMo

The stress of keeping up with the "quota" of words per day for NaNoWriMo has caught up to me and I now truly feel the hardships of a deadline. I also realize how hard it is for writers to come up with their ideas for their HUGE books whereas I'm only aiming to write a measly 50,000 words.

I may stop working as hard as I have been and just take it easy. I still have many more years of NaNoWriMo coming up. This was just a first experience and I'll learn from this. It's not like I'm going to completely stop working, I'm just going to finish this short novel, maybe publish it to a few friends and onto a website, and then that's that.

Turtle Beaches :P

I'm finally receiving the chance to pick up Turtle Beaches (specifically the Earfoce PX21 designed for PS3, XBOX, and PC) because a) my birthday is coming up and b) I finally got straight A's on my report card.

WOAH, let's just take a side step and talk about my report card. Yes, I certainly did get straight A's (and no reward is needed, only the satisfaction of knowing that I've done well) and I'm very pleased. For the record, this is the first time I've ever gotten straight A's, so it came as a shock to me. Back to the main topic.

What I'm looking to do with the new set of headsets (in case you were wondering what Turtle Beaches were) is to possibly record some game play with some friends and put up the recordings on YouTube. If we get EXTREMELY lucky, we might be able to earn some profits from the recordings and use them towards more recordings or tuition.

Rugby Game

Tomorrow I'll get to leave early from school (only at only 2:30 P.M. though) to go play in an exhibition rugby game between high schools in North Burnaby and high schools in South Burnaby. I'm super excited because the season was cancelled, and now I have a chance to actually go to a real game. I hope I'll be captain for the team and I'll also stick to my position as left wing.

What's Up With All These "TBH"s?

I hate how people are doing these "TBH"s lately because you can almost feel the fake in the air. It really annoys me. I almost feel like just saying, "EVERYBODY SHUT UP. NOBODY WANTS TO LIKE YOUR STATUS."

Anyways, I have to go to sleep now. I'm in a really good mood with all the good grades and the headsets and such, so for today, I'm definitely a 10. It's just been a really awesome day for me today. I guess I'll write more in the next post.

"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment " - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Like The New Design?

Totally Revamped Blog

I just finished spending a fair bit of time browsing Blogger templates and finally found one that suits my blogging needs. I have to say it looks pretty awesome. It would work really well for TheEpicosityGuy's site, but I don't think I can use the same design for two blogs that are so closely linked together (in terms of people, not genre).

Anways, I figured I'd start off this post with another epic picture (this time of Assassin's Creed III) just to make it look mildly interesting.

I'm probably going to spend a fair bit of time working on TheEpicosityGuys and integrating social media along with actually working on the site. The more I think about it, It'd be better to have just a blog for the official site of TheEpicosityGuys. The theme for this blog would completely be awesome for the site, so I might think about looking for another theme for my personal blog and switch this one over to the blog for TheEpicosityGuys that should be coming up relatively soon.

Busy days come ahead for me.

NaNoWriMo, 13,391 Words And Going... Okay?

Lately I've been struggling with coming up with the right ideas for my short novel. I'm at exactly 13,391 words at this point and I'm about 5,000 behind schedule. That kind of worries me. Tomorrow I plan to type a whole load of the novel after school (because most of my ideas are inspired by events at school) and possibly start seriously working on TheEpicosityGuys OR (not very likely though) learn a bit of PHP.

The reason why I think life is confusing is because I have too many goals that I'm working towards. I'm trying to be efficient and complete more than one goal at one time. One example is that I want to learn PHP and also start my own little company to gain a bit of revenue. I figured I can do all of those, but then I have mini goals, such as get Dreamweaver, Photoshop, Fireworks and such and such. Then later in life, I continue with MORE projects, such as TheEpicosityGuys and I figure that my little company can be TheEpicosityGuys.

Uggghhh, it seems like my life is so messy and I really need to organize and prioritize.

Okay, See You Next Post

Of course, I might not actually be literally watching you read my next post, but hey, you never know. Anyways, I'm sure I didn't do that well of a job for this post, nothing that's actually worth reading about. Sorry for wasting your time.

I feel like today shouldn't be a happy day for some reason, but truth be told, it could have been a lot more less enjoyable. Oh well. For today I'm a 8. I just have a feeling that something bad will be happening soon.

"They succeed, because they think they can." - Virgil

Hobby

I'm Finding Time

Now it's become apparent that I've got a lot of time on my hands, so I'm thinking of taking up a hobby or learning something new. I don't mean like getting a really casual hobby, like stamp or rock collecting, but something more... my style.

Lately I've taken a lot of interest in designing and photography, so I might look into that as a field of interest of hobby. Then again, I've always liked coding and knowing HTML, CSS, PHP, and MySQL could really help me in the future if I ever pursue a job as a coder. I don't know. There's a lot of stuff I could do. I might just stick to reading for a while until I figure out what to do.

Writing is already kind of a interest of mine, but NaNoWriMo certainly fulfills my cravings for writing. I don't know what else I could really do. Maybe I should just do something wild, like make a simple 3D animation or really get crazy and start learning how to design games.

It'd be cool to be a game designer, photographer, designer, coder, or anything along the lines of that. They're all really cool professions that I would just love to have. Doing something that I actually enjoy.

A Lot Of Work

My cousin has been really piling on work for me (he's assigning parts from a grade nine textbook for me to do in hopes that I can skip grade nine and go onto grade 10 next year), and the stress and strain of that is kind of bugging me.

You see, there's this constant expectation from everybody that I'm going to become something special one day. I personally want to be something special, but I don't know if I'm mature enough, or have the work ethic to do so.

So lately I've been working a lot harder than usual in order to meet my family's standards. I've kind of already met their expectations because I've gotten A's in all my subjects (SO FAR). I'm doing a lot better than I thought I was.

NaNoWriMo takes up a lot of time for me and I'm just a little more than 5,000 words behind schedule. I'm probably going to do a lot of typing tomorrow and get half halfway to the quota of tomorrow. Essentially saying, I will be 6,000 words behind schedule if I don't type anything today.

Lina's Coming Back

My cousin Lina is coming back on November 28, so that's something to look forward to. It's going to be awesome having her back in Canada. It seems like it's been a long time since I've seen her (really just about two months I believe).

Anyways, today I'm a 9. Nothing to be seriously happy about, yet there's nothing gloomy in my life. I've become very conscious about words that I say too often (such as "so", "anyways", "probably", "lately"), and I'm trying very hard not to say words that I overuse. It's going pretty well so far.

"Those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind." - Bernard M. Baruch

Unintentional Pity

People Unintentionally Hurt Others

As I said a post or two ago, humans as a race have flaws. One of those flaws is that we unintentionally hurt others by doing things that we think is the right thing to do. I'm not saying that you shouldn't do what you think is the right thing, but take a moment to think about how the other person would feel if you did what you did.

Our modern society makes it seem that anything positive is a sarcastic comment. In reality, humans are a run down race who are put down and lonely. I'm talking about this because although I do love it when people comment on my blog, it's kind of hurting me since I think that people are just being sarcastic when they comment positively.

I hope for most comments, what the person says is TRUTH. I really hope there was no sarcasm, and I will continue on with my business as if there wasn't any sarcasm.

So keep it up with the comments. They're perfectly fine.

NaNoWriMo Is Coming Along...

My short novel is getting to 50,000 words at what I believe is a decent pace. I'm nearing the 10,000 word mark, so I'm pretty happy that I'm actually managing to keep up with the pace.

So far my character has developed a lot mentally and socially, and I'm not completely sure how I want to end this novel. There's still about 40,000 words to the end, so I'm going to have quite a bit of time to actually think about this.

Well, Goodnight

I didn't really have much to talk about, but lately all my writing and speaking is reflecting off my character's. I guess I need to start easing up on the whole first person perspective aspect of my novel.

Today I'm a 10. I got a lot of work cleared up, and I remember worrying about something, but now that worry is gone for the most part. I wonder what type of dreams I will have tonight.

"A dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world." Oscar Wilde

People These Days

Humans Are Corrupted

Humans are a long way from being perfect. We have so many flaws in our characteristics, but hey, that's what makes us human. Humans just have problems with a lot of stuff, especially other humans.

The reason why I talk about the flaws of humans now is because a lot of friends are coming to me asking me for guidance and help, because you know, I'm that type of person, the type of person that helps out people. To be honest though, they kind of tire me out with their daily problems. First of all, I find that not all of their problems are explained and I can't do anything about that.

It's not that these people bug me, but it's because when I help out a person, there always tend to be two opposing parties. The thing is, I don't want to be involved in any of the situation or pick a side, but I know that I already know which party I'm "voting" for.

Got A Haircut

So I got a haircut and to be honest, it's too short for me. I don't like it. But it shouldn't be a problem for me. If I think it actually hurts my personality, then I'm just very vain.

See You Later

I don't have much else to talk about, so I'm just going to end this post right here.

I'm a 9 today. It was a decent day, and I finished most of my homework. Just nervous about some stuff.

"The way to succeed is to double your error rate." - Thomas J. Watson

November Is Here

Life's Bustling Now

Life is so messy and confused for me, I just want some time to sort things out and figure out what my plans should be.

That's why the weekend was invented.

Over this weekend I plan to just get everything in life in order and prioritized. I need to figure out what homework I need to get down, what quizzes or tests are coming up, and on top of that, I have other responsibilities, such as homework assigned by Michael (my cousin), homework from clubs, NaNoWriMo. It's all just one big huge mess of stuff. I need to get some ground laid down and figure a lot of things out.

I Wonder If I've Ever Been Hated

Now that I'm finally settling into the routine of being a student at Alpha, I can think and reflect back on my "glory days". Looking back, I don't think there were any people who openly showed they hated me. But I really wonder if there were people back in Begbie who didn't like me.

I'm very self aware of what people think of me. If somebody doesn't like me, it's not like I'm going to hold a grudge or anything, I'll just try my best to make sure that I don't bump into that person in the hallways or class too often. It's just I like to know things.

NaNoWriMo

Adding onto my daily stress load is NaNoWriMo. It's getting difficult to type enough words per day so that I can finish on time, and I already have a lot of other stuff I need to take care of. Sometimes I wish life just fell into place. But then maybe life would be too easy and we wouldn't like living.

Doubt

Doubt is a dangerous and at times helpful thing. For example, if you are doubtful that a man with a gun pointed at your head will actually shoot you, you might end up dead in the next few seconds. But then again, if you are doubtful that a man with a gun pointed at your head will actually shoot you, you might quickly disarm him and turn over the tables.

I don't like it when people doubt me at things. I'm perfectly fine if I'm scared or won't do something (where in that case, it's perfectly correct to say I'm doubtful), but if I have the full confidence to do something, somebody shouldn't doubt me and step in the way to "protect" me.

Sometimes I doubt that I will actually continue this blog. It just seems sometimes that everything is pilling up in my arms, and I'm trying to hold everything in place. But I can't. And I just sometimes want to let go of everything. Or just drop a few things and continue on with the most valuable items I'm carrying, but I know that if I hang on, my arms will get used to it and will eventually grow stronger. Stronger arms mean I can lift more.

As I Said, "Busy Days"

It feels like this part of my life will be the busiest. It feels that way, but I know it won't be. I know there will be another time in the near or distant future where I'll be feeling like I'm just carrying too much.

I'm a 8 today. Worried about how I'm going to sort my mess of a life. I'm at my carrying capacity. It doesn't feel like I can take on any more responsibilities or do anything else.

"From now on, I'll connect the dots my own way." - Bill Watterson

200th Post

Welcome To My Blog

This blog contains many of my ambitions, naive dreams and hopes, and just the musings of a far-from-average kid. Therefore, I invite you to openly read my blog. You will experience my weak points, my low points, my strong points, and my high points. I'm seriously really thankful that I still have motivation to continue on with this blog, even though it's been quite a bit over a year now.

Broke 10,000 And 200

So this post is EXTREMELY special because of two reasons. First of all, I have finally breached the 10,000 view point. Secondly, this is my 200th post, so I'm feeling pretty proud of myself. I remember the last time I had the 100th post it was just wild. I led the 100th post with these posts called "Extravaganza Posts". I also remember one of those posts peaked up to over 2,000 views (it was in fact a very memorable post).

Anyways, I have to stop my rambling about milestones and get onto the real topic. I have a lot of planned things that have just been waiting to burst out of my thought bubbles over the past week or so that I have been absent from this blog.

High Points. Low Points.

I've met a lot of people who've talked about high school with me and about how great and fun it is and how when I graduate (pardon me, if I graduate) I'll be wishing I was back in grade eight again. But something I haven't heard much of when talking with people who have graduated from high school and know the whole story is about high points and low points.

Naturally there are always high points and low points in life, not only high school. I talk to a lot of friends about their troubles and sorrows and my one piece of solid advice that never seems to fall short is that it's always darkest before dawn.

What I mean by this saying is that when everything seems to be at it's worst, something good will rise up on the horizon. I know this is true, because this always happens to me and there is no reason at all why it should not happen to anybody else.

Sometimes when I'm chatting with a person that just seems very pessimistic and bleak, I feel kind of hopeless myself. Its one of my low points.

It's kind of weird how I believe I know things as if I had already passed through high school, but I'm pretty sure that we'll all be wishing we would go through high school again. I just know that there will be high points and low points in life.

Alpha

I kind of don't feel like delving into the subject of how the human society works and all that, so I'm just simply going to talk about Alpha and the clubs and such.

I figured that running for grade eight rep (representative if you wish to be fancy) was a pretty good idea (and don't get me wrong, I still think it is), but I'm just waiting for something to actually happen. The same goes for all the other clubs in Alpha except for The Offence (we've had quite a few meetings and I've attended one session of The Spud Patrol). I'm sure there was only one Student Council meeting (which I did attend, mind you) and I'm pretty sure there were also quite a few Journalism meetings (which I missed all of, because I was unaware of them).

So far I have been fitting into Alpha pretty well and I just love the whole school. There are a lot of cool people there who I've met and I can't wait to experience the next five years or so of my high school life.

Bad Parenting

Today as I was walking to school, I saw an old man (guessing around his 80's?) who was yelling at this little girl to get into the car. I don't know if he was just having a bad day, or if the child was just having a bad day, but that kind of made me think of things.

It gave me something to think about as I continued my brief walk to school.

By the time I reached my first period class, I had personally swore to try my best to never ever lay a hurtful hand on a child, or say anything hurtful. I don't know if I can actually get this done, but you know me. I never guarantee anything, because what happens if I just died the next second?

I wonder if I had told the old man this how he would have reacted. Would he have felt remorse and sadness? Or would he have simply treated me like the child?

To Be Continued

It's getting really late right now, so I'm going to end this post right here and now. I think I did a decent job with this, but this is definitely not enough for the 200th post. I'm probably going to include a follow up or two after this post, but I still feel okay with this post.

Today I'm a 10. I feel really good that I finally got my laptop back. Basketball season is also coming up, so I'm looking forward to that. By the way, my friend asked me to say something from my co-op blog, and I will say that right now. You two are awesome. You know who you are and I'm extremely thankful for that one day when you came up to us (actually don't remember exactly what happened, but this should be accurate enough) at Science World and said hi. That hi started a friendship that I'm sure will last forever.

"Guarantees cannot be held. It's always a mistake to say, "When I..." instead of, "If I..." because who knows, life is short, and we may just not live to see the next day." - Kevin Zou

Post 199

So One Away From 200

The next post will the 200th on this blog (although for sure this blog has been in service for more than 200 days), so I'm pretty hyped up for that. It's hard to believe that this blog turned from a lame account of my day to day life to a pretty cool blog (I do have to say so myself). I spent some time a few days looking ago and realizing how much I had developed as a person and how my ideas and projects failed and sprouted.

Anyways, for post number 199, I'm just planning to do a post slightly centered on the whole idea of just regret and just going for it.

Regret

One of those topics that I haven't really touched on is regret. I've had a lot of regrets in life and they always leave me thinking, "What if...?" The reason why I'm talking about regret all of the sudden is because I'm helping out a friend with problems. Not going to delve completely into details since I don't know if this friend of mine would like having a decently sized audience reading her story. Anyways, this story involves the possibility of regret in the future, so the message I just want to get out to EVERYBODY (and by everybody I sincerely mean EVERYBODY) is to just take the chance. You never know what's going to happen if you don't try. I'm almost 100% sure (not going to say 100% since you know, things happen) that 20 years from now, somebody will be thinking, "What if I had told that person I had feelings for him/her?"

I just hate seeing a person with regret, because I know that person can't do anything about regret. What's happened has happened and that person just can't do anything about it but try and fix whatever happened.

A very good author once wrote, "Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened." But you'll never be able to smile because you never did anything to make anything happen (that author by the way was Dr. Seuss).

It's Hard To End This Post

It really is difficult to end a post, especially when I know that the next post will be the 200th and I need to seriously get a good follow up post. I have no idea what I will talk about. Completely no idea. I guess something's going to have to happen between now and the start of my next post.

Anyways, I'm feeling like a 10. I had some fun at St. John's and now I'm talking with my closest friends. Catch you in the next post.

"Do it because you'll never know what could have been." - Kevin Zou

Once Again I Speak Of Independence

If Only I Could Choose For Myself

So once again my laptop has been taken away, so my usual routine of using my old laptop has started once again. Every time my laptop is taken away, I seemingly enter a mood of depression and I usually blog about independence. Just delivering what's for the most part always been happening.

Anyways, back to the oh-so-over-used topic of independence. Independence is what I strive for in life. I wish my mom and dad and just everybody in my life would let me make my own decisions regarding my computer time and stuff like that. I make sure that I do a good job on my homework and only when I'm done do I use the computer. Sometimes it feels like my parents don't even know me.

I Feel Unfit

Lately I've been feeling a bit unfit (and even worrying more so since I've heard rugby has been cancelled). Unfortunately, my workout was on my laptop that my mom took away, so I'm left with my own means of exercise and a chin up bar I have been neglecting as of late. So I might just start running in the mornings or after school or something like that to make sure I don't become a total couch tomato (I intentionally replaced potato with tomato).

I might just have to start watching out for what I eat though. Oh well. They say good health comes with a good diet and workout. Then again, good health is also explained by Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs.

Not Much Has Been Happening

My mind is drawing blanks as to what I should really talk about. I take irregular and large pauses of time between each topic trying to figure out what to talk about next. My eyes are getting a bit unfocused whenever I stare at the screen, so I'm probably just going to end this post here.

Today I'm a happy 9. I feel pretty good, except it's just the darn computer thing. Anyways, I'm having a good time talking with some friends over networks and I finished all my homework, so I can relax and try to get over my mild case of pneumonia.

"What we achieve inwardly will change change outer reality." - Plutarch

Back From Camp

Feels Good To Be Back

It feels really good to be back home and with all the friends that didn't go with me to this awesome retreat. I had an awesome time with all the people I shared my cabin with and in all the activities. I also met quite a few new people from Burnaby South.

Anyways, felt really cool to get to do all the awesome activities at Timberline, and just take a break from my family. But now I'm back (and with a lot of homework to do).

No Rugby I Hear

I hear because there aren't enough teams to make a league there won't be a rugby team for the Burnaby district. So I'm kind of peeved off about that.

And there goes my plan for not talking about my day and useless stuff.

Goodbye

I just felt obliged to get one measly post up after such a long time away (actually only three days).

Today I'm a 10. I feel awesome.

"Life is half spent before we know what it is." - George Herbert

Somebody Worth Caring

In Life...

You will find one person that you will care for. You will love and cherish this person for however long your emotions for that one single person last. It may be for five minutes, a second, or forever. It's funny how love can last forever, a long time, or can flee within initial appearance.

I hate it when my mom/dad yells at me to turn off the computer when I'm talking to this type of person. I absolutely hate it. I'm in the middle of one of the highlights of my day and they come over and shout at me to turn it off. It just seriously ticks me off.

Not Going To Explain My Day

So I'm going to try to not explain about my day unless it's at the very end of the blog. It's just something I'm trying out since I figure more people appreciate it when I actually put some thought into my posts instead of random mumble jumble.

I just love listening to songs that explain my situation in life. It's so easy to relate to them and they easily get stuck in my head. Well. That little bit was quite random.

Shoes

When people say, "Take a step in my shoes." or some variation of that, it kind of gets me mad. That's simply because they do not know that I do take a step in other pairs of shoes instead of my own. I almost put myself in everybody's shoes when I meet them or get to know them. I'm just that type of person.

I'm also very observant and understanding. I like listening to people's problems and "trouble shooting" them. I observe a person's character just by gestures and how they act towards others and by themselves.

So try that out. Either just think about being a completely different person or just observe somebody carefully. You'll find that it gets fun and now it's kind of like a weird habit that's automatic for me.

Getting Late Now

It's getting quite late now (kind of what is considered the time for a last ditch attempt post time), so I'm going to end this posting session. I hope you've enjoyed this post.

I'm a 9. I don't feel as proud for this post as I felt for the last post. It's like all of the sudden, when I've reached my best writing, I suddenly become very dumb. Oh well. I guess every up has its down.

"What light is to the eyes - what air is to the lungs - what love is to the heart, liberty is to the soul of man." - Robert Green Ingersoll

Getting To 10,000

Looks Like I'll Make It

Today is one of my rare days when I actually have the effort and willingness to write on both this blog and my co-op blog (using "co-op" now because I find it a waste of time to type "collaborated" each time I mention that blog).

Anyways, the views are rising quite rapidly per day (and if you look at the picture for this topic, you'll see I have set it so that I'm not tracking my own page views), and I'm completely oblivious to the people who are visiting my blog. But nevertheless, I thank you for sticking with me.

I have several people visiting this blog (and this post specifically). Most of these people had no idea I had a blog until I gave them the link. I'm going to try and answer some questions these people have been asking here.

Thoughtfulness

In this blog, I try to filter out what I have done in my day and try to leave it until the end of the post to tell what did happen. When I do tell, I try to tell it briefly and quickly, but sometimes I miss the mark and just go on about my day.

This post isn't about my day, because I've already explained what needed to be explained on my co-op blog. Therefore I have this whole post to tell you about my latest musings and take on the world.

Pity And Disgust

Lately I've taken pity on two people particularly. One of them is a big guy. He's tall, in grade nine I believe and he's big and on the rugby team (which is how I grew to know him). He's the modern gentle giant. I remember one of the first times I saw him outside of rugby practice.

I was looking around during lunch for my friends. As I entered the courtyard (people who know Alpha will get this), I saw him standing there looking out on the short horizon of the horseshoe parking lot. Two girls started walking into the courtyard and as they passed, he said to one of them, "Hey, I think we need to talk." The girl looked to him and quickly dismissed him and as she walked away she said, "Uhhh, I don't think so." I felt extreme and sudden pity for the guy and disgust for the girl. I went up to his side and felt like saying a few words about girls and trying to comfort him, but I just couldn't bring myself to do so.

This second pitiful person in my eyes is the typical nerd. He has acne and walks around with sort of a hunch. I thought about befriending this person because I felt he would be one of those people who are a lot cooler than people think they are. I still haven't talked to him.

Anyways, my goal is to be friends with all the people who deserve to have friends and not to be friends with the people who walk around with an I'm-better-than-you attitude. The downfall to my great plan is that I'm fairly known to those people who walk around with that attitude and they consider me a good friend.

What Makes A Person One Of A Kind?

This topic is dedicated to you. You know who you are and I thank you for giving me this idea.

For this little next part, I'll be using "he", "himself" and other words that project the subject as male simply because I am male and it makes my job much easier.

A person is one a kind when that person leaves you wanting more after an ended conversation. He is one who knows that he is different from the usual and embraces himself as unusual. He knows when he has done wrong and when he has done right and knows when he should correct himself and when he should stand by his own ideas.

But most of all, a person who is one a kind is made by the people who know him. A person is made one of a kind, when he is seen as one of a kind by his friends.

Well, Ending This Session

I've written a lot about my recent and latest thoughts and wonders. I have many more stored up in that little place they call my mind and I feel really good about publishing this particular post.

Anyways, thank you. Thank you for reading my blog. If you're new, or old, I still thank you. This blog is a huge part of my life and I hope it will be a part of your life, no matter how insignificant that part may be.

I'm feeling like a 10 today. Nothing really to worry about in life anymore and this post really makes me proud of my writing skills (which I blow upon occasionally).

By the way, if you like my blog and wish to support it, then please become a follower on this blog or comment on any post. It feels nice to know I'm affecting somebody for good. It really gives me confidence when somebody comments or follows my blog and I don't know that person. I just know that people out there are discovering this very blog. And that would give me enough to write for at least a few more years. So, cheers to this year and hopefully the many other that will follow.

"Love is kind of like a grenade. You know you want to poke it and experiment with it, but you're afraid of getting hurt." - Kevin Zou

Happy Birthday To Lina!

Today Is Lina Jew's Birthday!

So today is Lina's (who's name I have already typed twice) birthday and I'd just like to give a shout out to her. Happy birthday Lina! I hope you're having a good time in Michigan or wherever you are these days. Just remember not to party TOO hard and get a hang over tomorrow morning (don't even know if you drink or not, but just in case if you do).

Anyways, once again, happy birthday from your little cousin Kevin.

Going To Watch Girl's Volleyball Game

The Aztecs are facing off Moscrop in girl's volleyball today and I can't wait to go watch (the reason I'm home so early from school is because it's early dismissal). It's going to be an awesome time watching them play (and hopefully beat Moscrop) and just hanging out with friends at my first high school sporting event.

Timberline Retreat

My band retreat to Timberline camp is coming up this Tuesday, so I'm also pretty excited for that. There are a few different type of time periods in my life. There's lay-back-and-relax, which is essentially minimal or no homework and no plans made. Then there's the it's-getting-tense where I have SOME homework, but less than an hour's worth. Then there's the so-much-stuff-to-do. Right now it's the so-much-stuff-to-do period of my life. There's the retreat coming up (and I'm sorry to say I'll be missing my first rugby game, although it's only an exhibit I believe) and just a bunch of other stuff that's clogging up my schedule.

I seriously need to get myself a whiteboard to write all of my schedule and plans and things to do on.

By the way, not sure if that's an actual photo of Timberline, since it was said there were no stores there.

Alright, Going To Do My Own Business

For the next two hours or so I'll just be playing games and getting ready to go to the volleyball game. Nothing much. Nobody's home right now since my brother's school doesn't have the early dismissal (it's for the parent/teacher conference thing), so I have the house all to myself.

There's also two new comments on my blog. I'm pretty sure one of them is from a family member telling me not to break anything in rugby (although it could be a friend). And the second one was a comment on my post about my 8,600 or so views and it read, "If I sit here and hit refresh enough times, you'll hit 10k no problem!" so that was also pretty mysterious. Although now that I think about it, it could also have been another friend or the same one.

I've had a good day so far, so I'm a 9. I can't say that this 9 will be etched in stone, but whatever. I write how I feel and today I feel like a 9.

"Happy birthday Lina!" - Kevin Zou

Rugby Game Tomorrow .__.

First Game Of The Season

Tomorrow I'll be playing my first game of rugby for the grade nine rugby boys. I'm still not sure how the whole system works, with the uniforms and stuff, and to be honest, I'm not entirely sure about the rules of rugby though, so I'm apprehensive towards how it will work out.

I'm really excited towards the game and I tried getting some of my friends to come and watch (although I must admit that Alpha doesn't have that many fans when it comes to sports). So, overall, I feel pretty good about myself and this upcoming game.

Playing left/right wing for the team, so I'm really enthusiastic to trying to score tries (sounds funny).

Errr... Probably No Posts For The Next Few Days

It's one of those times where things get tense in the households (yes, I do mean households as in the plural of household) and I am either TOLD my computer will be taken away or I just get this sixth sense that my computer will be taken away.

Either way, it's very possible my computer will be kidnapped during either the night or at school, so don't expect any blog posts soon on THIS blog. As for the blog I share with Tyler, I have a commitment to make, so I think that I'll just use my old computer and quickly type 500 words and get it over with.

SPEAKING of having my computer being confiscated, it feels like everybody in the family is up against me. It's like they have no idea of what I do on the computer everyday and they don't realize how (and I say this with no regrets) the internet and social media is a part of my life. I just wish they would think the same way I think. Funny, because I was just told by Michael to put my feet in other people's shoes. Kind of ironic if Michael doesn't do that for me.

Six Minutes Left

I agreed to get off the computer at 11:30PM and hand over my computer. A bit... hmmm... what's the word? I'm a bit opposed to just handing off my computer, but I guess that's better than coming home from an exhausting rugby game and hoping that my computer still sits on my desk.

Today I had a bad day. Well, it was really cool talking to my friends and FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY learning how to export videos from Premier Pro CORRECTLY. So today I consider to be just one of those eh days. I'll rate my day as 7. Really sad that my computer will once again be taken away. But then again, it's that tiny sliver of hope.

"Don't hold back your feelings. Express them. Share them. If you love a person, tell them that. Better to know in the first place than to regret not asking later." - Kevin Zou

Feeling A Lot Better .__.

Lately I've Been Sick...

I've been really sick lately (well, to be honest, not THAT sick, but you know, enough to make everything seem worse than it is), so I thank first of all, Tyler for letting me go unpunished for not meeting the post needs on our collaborated blog. I also thank EVERYBODY (and ANYBODY) who visits this blog frequently.

If you're new here, then it won't take long for you to jump right into the system of my blog.

So for anybody who has known of my illness, I'm now much better and ready to get back to blogging.

Almost At 9000 Views :)

I've been working on this blog for a very long time (nearly a year by now). To be exact, 403 days OR one year, one month, and seven days. I wrote my first post on August 31, 2011, and it feels like it's been a REALLY REALLY long time.

Anyways, I noticed that the view count has risen up to about 8,600, and I'm really wondering if I'll make it to 10,000 by the end of 2012. If you guys would like to help me with that, just share this blog with your friends. Not sure how many people actually read this blog.

Life Is Going Swell

Right now life is going really well. I don't know if the fact that since something bad has faded away, I feel just good overall. I'm good with all my homework and stuff and a rugby game is coming up against Tuesday.

Today I'm a good 10. I'm having a really cool time talking with everybody on Skype (my new friends from Alpha specifically). Well see you guys next post.

"A friend is one who knows you and loves you just the same." - Elbert Hubbard

Humanity

Realized Something HUGE Today

Today I realized why our society is broken down, unkind, and just full of no emotion. It's because we have outlived the point where it was normal to be nice. I believe there was a time in the past when it was normal to just be compassionate and affectionate for others, but for sure that time is not now.

I say this because a lot of events have happened today. Many of them were awesome and fun events. Something happened though that will probably show to be a problem.

Anyways, my "amazing" realization is that life itself has grown to be cliché.

So, What Exactly Happened?

Well, I'm incredibly glad that this blog is probably only viewed by the closest of my friends. I don't want those people who don't care about anything I write about and in the end just post in the comments, "Cool blog." That's because I KNOW that the person is just simply having a little joke and being sarcastic. Only true appreciation will be shown by a truly felt comment or just some form of gratitude.

I'm getting off topic.

To put things in simple terms and to make sure that nobody gets hurt or anything stupid like that, I have a friend who has a friend who likes a girl I hang out with sometimes. So get this. He's THREATENING me and telling me to back off or else he will "beat" me up.

First of all, I'm not going to start the fight, NOR am I going to fight back. If he starts a fight with me (which will be definitely outnumbered because he can't fight for nothing), then I'll either just bolter out of there (if I can) or fight back.

The second thing is, do you think I'd be one to loose a fight? You don't know, because you've never seen me fight or anything.

Here's a message to the kid who threatened me. I'm not scared of you, or any of your friends in your little "gang". I don't care if your friend "likes" this girl and I can like her if I want to. I'm just going to tell you, if you start that fight, you will regret it. You can trust me on that one.

Well, Here We Continue

High school is full of three types of people. There are the "cool" kids, the "outcasts", and the people who can actually make change and realize what is truly their power and status.

The "cool" kids are usually the sporty kids who walk around the school thinking that they're awesome and better than everybody else. To be "cool", you either have to be a sports star or you have to own something valuable. That's not what true cool is. My friends at Alpha are cool. Those are the type of people who are actually cool. The "friend" who was threatening me is not cool. He thinks he is, but he isn't.

The "outcasts" is a bad term for those who just don't have that much of a voice in the school or are simply intimidated by these guys who think they are the coolest. I'm sorry for picking a horrid name for you guys. You people are those who can actually be cool and worthwhile to spend time with.

The people who can actually make change and realize what truly is their power and status are those who I like the most. These people are leaders and can handle bad situations. You don't find these types of people in schools anymore. These are the people who everybody should be looking up to.

Goodbye

Goodbye, farewell, whatever, this post will be ending very shortly. Thank you for spending your time listening and hearing me out. I know not enough people do so these days. Over the next few days, you might hear me blog about growing tension between me and that "friend", and who knows, a fight might just break out.

I'm a really awesome 10 today. I had an awesome time with the "Discovery Gang" and I just wish we went to Science World everyday.

"Life is cliché." - Kevin Zou

Love Is Picky

Love Can Come And Go

Have you ever had that feeling when you pass somebody in the hallway and all of the sudden you find out you love that person, just based on his/her appearance. It's amazing how your mind suddenly conjures up a fantasy life in the few seconds you see that person in the hallway and then when you pass that person, you don't like him/her anymore. It's weird right? I'm not going to hide anything, and I'm just going to put it out there that this has happened to me so many times over the past few days. But it's the same thing. I pass somebody in the hallway, and it's over in a second.

As of now? Well, there's one person on my mind. I'm not sure of my feelings for her, but I don't know. She stands out. Love is kind of like a grenade. You know you want to poke it and experiment with it, but you're afraid of getting hurt.

Collaboration Blog

So Tyler and I have started up our co-op blog for a while now and I'd say it's running pretty well. We don't really have that much of an audience now and probably over half of the views are from me (since I didn't place a cookie that wouldn't track my views, but I'll do that right after this). I just wish we could get our blog out to a wider audience.

People just haven't seen the type of blogging that Tyler and I do simply because they think we're inexperienced and new bloggers. I can only hope that it will only be a little bit of time until somebody who I don't know actually finds my blog.

Anyways, I missed a post (don't know how that happened) and now I'm awaiting a punishment. Tyler says he's going to come up with one by the 30, so I can't wait to see what could take so long for him to think up.

Life Is Bitter Sweet

I'm enjoying life right now. Rugby is really awesome and I can't wait for our first game of the season. High school is truly going to be the best years of my young life.

Today I'm a 9. I feel pretty good about life overall and everything is just running smoothly. Nothing really is bugging me except for the fact that I do know that it will be hard to make really good and true friends at this school.

"I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said, "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded." - Iris from The Holiday

God, This Is Going To Be A Filled Post

Catching Up

First of all, I realize I have not mentioned on this blog that I did not make it into the Junior Boys Soccer team (better luck next year?). Second of all, I have joined the rugby team (which needs more grade eights or else we're playing against the grade nines). I had a really good practice today, and I think I'm going to enjoy rugby.

Another bit of news is that tomorrow there is a welcome back barbecue at Begbie and I might go. It sounds like a really good time. It will be cool to see some old friends and maybe meet some new people.

I've also started finally understanding web design and my next little side project is to redesign The Epicosity Guys site with my spare time. Most of my time will be spent on learning PHP and MySQL while also working on building the foundation for my company.

Unravelling The Spool Of High School

After spending a week or two at Alpha, I have discovered what really is important to most, if not all the students in a high school. Reputation. People build their high school lives on reputation. So what I'm saying is that without friends, you can't live a "happy" high school life.

Me? I don't really care about this. Reputation means nothing to me currently. If I somehow manage to salvage a reputation in Alpha, then I'll use the limited amount of power I have to turn the school around for the better. Be friends with all the "nerds" and "geeks" while spending minimal amount of time with the "popular" kids to maintain a good reputation.

But for now, I'm fine with the friends I've made.

Types Of People

In high school, you meet different types of people. You meet the nerds, geeks, bookworms, popular kids, the silent students, everybody. However, here are the types of people that I've noticed a lot.

The first person is the tool holder. This person flirts with the opposite gender and then uses the other person as a homework study tool or just for their own selfish needs. Then they throw the person away like a dirty rag and ignore it for the rest of their lives.

The second type of person is the conflicting personalities. This person focuses a lot in school and during class but fools around a whole bunch when it's not class time. I guess I'm kind of this person, but I do the fooling around almost all the time.

Well, Goodbye

I'm going to start getting ready for bed. Kind of weird that I spend about an hour getting ready for bed.

Anyways, I'm a 9 today. I'm feeling pretty good overall in life.

"Do all things with love." - Og Mandino

Independent

Sometimes I Wish

Whenever my parents, guardian, or whoever is taking care of me, gets mad at me, I just wish I was living by myself. For example, my mom has lately taken to threatening to take away my laptop because I've been on it way too much. Now, I'm not saying that I never go on the computer, or that she's wrong (in fact, far from that), but what really bugs me is that she thinks that I'm not able to take care of my school work. This upsets me because my mom (and not only her) think that I can't manage my own school work and that I would pick the computer over school. It bothers me because I believe in her mind I'm a lazy person who is reckless.

If I was living by myself, or in a dorm, away from home, whatever, I'd take care of myself. Parents, you always think that your children don't like to eat vegetables (I don't mean to say that ALL parents think this, but you have to admit the majority do), and the thing is, we won't eat them until we first learn their benefits and until we can eat them by ourselves. You see, imagine if I was at home, eating dinner. I would not eat vegetables because my parents would "force" me to and simply because I don't enjoy most vegetables. Now, if I was living by myself, I would always make sure I get my daily requirement of vegetables and all other food groups because I am responsible for MY OWN health.

So parents, do your children a favour and let them have some responsibility over the choices in life. You may think they don't know what they're doing, but they will rise to the occasional and show you that they are truly independent.

To clear up things, I don't mean children as in toddlers and six and under. I mean like teenagers. Give them a bit of responsibility. It'll really help build their character.

Most Parents Don't Understand

I find it more and more true that parents these days don't understand why we use the computer. My parents and guardians think it's a waste of time and always believe I'm gaming. They don't realize the vast knowledge, and experience a computer (more so the internet) can provide.

I'm almost certain that if I grow up (we should really say "if I grow up" instead of "when I grow up" because we don't know if we will grow up because we might just die) and have children, I will LET them use the computer. Instead though, I will actually understand and connect to my children. I'm not saying that I'll allow my future children to play games all day. I'm saying that I will let them do what they want, so long as it does not interfere with the things that will allow them to lead a healthy and successful life.

Funny, I Always Enjoy The Future

Almost everyday I always think about the future. This is probably because of past experiences in life where I didn't think before speaking and messed up some stuff. I guess those experiences made my mind always think ahead in most situations. I find this habit to be largely useful at most times. It also gives me things to think about.

Well, goodbye for now. It's just a bit past half of the day, so I can't truly say what I'm feeling for the day overall since it isn't near to being finished. For now though, I'm pretty cool with what's going on right now, but there's always that stuff that lurks behind. I'm a 8.

"Enjoy and think about the future. You'll find it helps." - Kevin Zou