To
the one who I wouldn't keep,
By "going out" with you, I had already condemned our trio to an end. Looking back, that decision of mine is one of the greatest regrets that I have. I can't even begin to imagine how things would have turned out differently if it had not happened.
Don't get me wrong though, I liked our relationship. It was just framed by a story of three friends, and I ultimately valued our friendship more than the relationship. The worst part is that I didn't even "trade" properly. I gained very little by labeling ourselves, and lost it all.
I regret being complacent with our chats, and didn't bother to think about what else I could obtain. Even though we said we were "dating", we didn't do much different than what we did as friends. To me, this is the saddest part.
I think you were the final one to end before I finally realized that mutual feelings of attraction don't need to lead to a relationship. Thank you for that. Also, thank you for doing your best not to make things weird around me. If it ever does feel weird, it is only because of me, and the fact that I have a hard time letting things go.
The way that we ended wasn't the greatest, and it's a painful memory. I only remember feeling intense and unbiased emotions of jealousy, and eventually I pushed you to cut the rope. Sorry about that.
From,
the one who was too dumb to see what he had
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